Change

I don't want people to assume that im a forgiver. I know being one is a good thing but when they say it, it seems so shallow, as if they say it because i fall easily for something. Because i don't know how to commit to my feelings that something went wrong and something hurted me. And i just can't hold on to the fact that the same thing might hurt me again if i forgive it. I admit that maybe sometimes , not sometimes, actually always, i don't mind when people let me down. I am feeling too content about things till i don't even care if something goes wrong. I don't get hurt easily, even if the person is the person that i love the most that hurts me. You know why? Because i know everything can be settled. Everyone is different in their own way, and even if they're different, doesnt mean they dont have the same heart. They might turn a bit rude, might turn more greedy and might turn more inconsiderate. But they are still the same person they used to be, they are they. And what they give to you is gonna be the same thing you received before they change. It is not how someone really change, it's about how you take it in. I never did hate my enemies. And i can swear to god about it. Even if they hate me, even if they try to harm me, i believe that they always have a reason to, even if the reason is that the attitude seems to be their nature. I believe that everyone has a kind heart, even if they are cruel. The only way for people to have this same view as me is when they have faith in other people. If you have faith in other people, you won't get hurt, you won't hurt the other person and your life won't get messy. That is why faith is very important. So now, im feeling more relieved about my life because i finally, have that chance to forgive her.

I’m not afraid to try again. I’m just afraid of getting hurt for the same reason.