I'll always love you

I love you mami, even if you're gone now, you'll always be in my heart. Im srry i wouldnt let mama put ur collar in ur box, i wnted to keep ur collar as a memory. I know you're probably the closest to me and papa. We could either find you in my room or papa's room. But lately before you were sick, you were always sleeping in my room, in the box beside the balcony door, and i would always put a cushion there with ur blanky and ur teddy the red donkey with blue feet. Every morning, you would wake me up by meow-ing and putting ur teddy bear at my foot. I know you're always hyper in the morning. I would get your fake snake and play it with u around the room. You have those cute puss and boots eyes, and you always looked beautiful. You always sleep with me in the evening on my bed.

I don't know what went wrong, your blood was fine, your kidney was fine but you don't have the appetite to eat. The doctor couldnt find a cause to your sickness. Why wont you eat?

You know im never always the strong one, i would tell you my problems everytime i had one.

And yesterday when i saw you lying down in the cage on the blanket. Weak and barely breathing with your eyes open. I was thinking of the worst, and we knew you weren't gonna last long. I couldn't think about the fact that you won't be with me anymore. You looked so different. When i stroke you, i could only feel your bones.

Everyone was crying and i was trying to hold on to my feelings. I was the last one to cry but when i cried, it lasted the longest. I didn't even have the strength to talk. When mama woke me up at 11.45am, she cried in front of me and even woke up hanna, papa, eimaan and ezza. And I knew right away why she was crying. I was the last one to go down because i started crying again. When I looked at you, I knew you felt relieve as the suffering has ended. You weren't just a cat. You were my bestfriend and I love you.