Disconnected

I don't knw why but i feel so disconnected to you. I know we dont see each other anymore tht often but i havent seen the others too. But why do i have to feel disconnected to you? I mean you're the closest to me and i was afraid this might happen. I was afraid this side of you would appear more bcause ive seen hints of it bfr. I know myself and i know tht i culdnt accept it. But i keep fighting. I try my hardest. It's hard cz im struggling. To fight for something thts worth it, well worth it for me. I dont know if it is for u, anymore.

Im not trying to be childish nor am i trying to be judgemental again. But this is a strong feeling, and im scared it might eat up our friendship. I don't wanna lose you. I care for you. You don't know how much I love you. You're my sister.