These Days

It has been really stressful lately, really really stressful. My head is full of studies. Its so true when the teachers said that form 4 is wayy different than form 3. There's studies and there's revising, sometimes i even feel like sleeping in the class cause of the insufficient time to sleep. It's really making my mind tired. And this stress made me go all angry and nuts almost all the time, and i tend to aim it to my friends. Which is rlly selfish of me. But then in the end, i'll just realize its stupid and apologise. And then i do it again when i am. Haha :D
That's one of my flaws. I cant deny it. Im not all suit up for a perfect impression.
People make mistakes. And i just salute those people who can deal with them not being perfect.
Because this is the world. It doesnt revolve around you. It revolves around everybdy. And even if u think so hard that the important matters for u are the only thing in the orbit, you're wrong.
I wanna make a change. I really do. I don't know why i've been so sensitive lately.
I needed to make a pidato for my bm lisan, and i wanted to do about pembuangan bayi.
So i googled about it, and saw pictures of the babies being thrown away. And i cant help it but to cry, cry thinking that the babies were crying. Thinking, wheres my family, where are they? Why am i here all alone, im hungry and im cold.
And dont ever think that they're thrown at a secure place, there's this baby, it came out at the newspaper.
The baby was found by a kid if im not mistaken or the pasukan khas pembuangan bayi, they found the baby in a rubbish bin, without the baby's arms. And then they saw a dog carrying it in his mouth. The baby's arms. And i actually felt that pain the baby felt. Yes well maybe as what iman said, "alaa the baby kan slalu tk rasa ape, im sure he didnt feel it". But he's still a human being. He is god's creation. And everyone has feelings. No matter how small or big or young or old they are. We are all humans. We have feelings. We got stimulus for god sake, imagining myself being thrown away and feeling that pain, the pain that the dog actually separated my arms with my body. That's just u know what im gonna say.WHAT DID THEY DO WRONG? THE BABIES DIDNT DO ANYTHING WRONG! and i know u f*ers in this world are trying to hide what you guys did wrong. Have sex la lagy! Go get urself pregnant! And then when u want ur life and ur world to go the way you want it to be, and then u go throwing something u think thats going to ruin ur whole life.
You people never think of the consequences! You make babies because you want a happy life and the relationship u built with the person u love! Which is marriage! Not just hey ur sexy, im hot, want my number? Lets book a motel. PLEASE JUST PLEASE F*CKING THINK!

Please, just have a long thought about whatever you wanna do in life. Because a small matter changes everything, in your life. And have pity to them that's being thrown away eventhough they did nothing wrong. I beg you.