Cleaning

Had the prefect interview at school, no comment about it!

Well when i was cleaning my class, especially when i was cleaning the table in front of my class. at the edge actually. I was arranging the quotes cardboard, tht i made for the class, since i am the ajk kebersihan and keceriaan -.-" So then when i pulled this cardboard when it was half stuck between the wall and the table. A spider jumped out, i think it was hanging on the cardboard and i killed him when i was pulling the cardboard tht was against his body. Im sorry :( I didnt mean to kill u! I seriously didnt. But it was not a small black spider, not the usual ones u always see. When the spider came out, i thought it was a tarantula! Because it was as big as it, okay maybe not as big as it, but just a few cm smaller, so it was kinda big, it was those spiders who had a clear look. But the spider was brown. So i was shocked and i called Banumathy to ask her what was it, i thought it was somekind of a thread with a knot or something. Bt then she said it was rlly a spider, we made an impression of disgust ! Because the spider was alrdy dead, and aaaaaaaaah, i dont know, then Iman Redza came and looked at the spideyy. Soon, atasha came and Sab and Syakira too. So since Atasha was on duty today, i ask her to sweep the floor and throw the rubbish, oh yeah and clean the spider, but of course i did help by cleaning the table, so when i was cleaning it, suddenly, i realized tht i was holding the spider's leg! IT WAS APART FROM IT'S BODY! IT WAS BROKEEENNN! EEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! so i asked for pn mugil's permission to go to the toilet and washed my hands there, with a lot of soap! complained to wei yi about the spider, she was also disgusted by it! eeeeeeeee :(

:(

Still got no corby! Ahhhh! :( My dad said he'll bring me to lowyatt to buy the phone on the 7th, well i guess thts good? Coz 8th may is the IU day. And I wanna have a new phone before that day coz mine gone cuckoo alrdy, and it would be so hard to contact "people". Well, Iman got her corby txt alrdy :( and ash got her corby alrdy too :( Im still waiting for my corbypro, why did i have to choose the most expensive corby! well hehe, i've always wanted a phone with qwerty keyboard, the large slide out ones. and this is my chance, since im paying for half of the price and my dad is paying half of the price, now im just waiting for my 20 bucks from iman and the secondhand books trading. Then i think it'll be enugh to buy the phone. I really really want it, i dont mind waiting for it, okay maybe i mind, a lil bit. because i rlly want a new phone, and im not the type who always change phones. And sadly, i never get to choose my own phone, my dad always choose them and this is my time! Im not gonna listen to anything tht my dad says about the phone im gonna buy coz he has no rights, he's been choosing for me since standard 6. Im alrdy 16 and i have the rights to make my own desicion. Thank you very much.
Talking about IU day, im gonna have to wear the 100 years t-shirt, -.-" I thought it was the "revolutions of the east", u know the theme, wow i look so east-y then :D *sarcasm tone. They should've told earlier about what we shuld wear, so tht easier, for us to find or something. And we're going to have our exams 2 days later after the IU day! But im still going for the IU day to show my spirit and to help interact club. Eventhough im just going to be the usherer. So yeah ngeeh, at least im contributing something. At least? I can't believe im gonna have to wear track pants, -.-" Can't i wear slacks? :/

:)

Visited my cousin yesterday night at gleanegles hospital, If i spelled that right. He got some kind of an infection. Pity him, :( So we brought him chocolates, garlic breads, and all. I can't resist the m&m's. So i took one small m&m, and that was it. Well, i had a good chat with ammar! We talked about left4dead, killing zombies, *piew piew piew, haha. Since now my dad's comp has been downloaded with the game. I play it everyday and yesterday i played the game with my mom :D After 5 seconds, my mom was scared and went off -.-" So i was the brave one killing all the zombies with my rifles and guns! It was so fun i swear, there was a lot of zombies, all types of them, smoker, hunter, boomer was the fat one, everytime i killed him. His blood went everywhere and it was green. For hunter, it was hard to kill because he kept jumping everywhere, but the scariest was smoker because he had this long toungee to wrap around the victim's body and pull them. So i've been pulled, a lot of times -.-" haha. I still haven't seen the tank species, but i'll keep searching ! It's my favourite game now :')


Damn, just got the news 2 seconds ago, ammar is confirmed with H1N1 :'(
Omg, i really hope he's gonna be okayy! This is just so terrible! I hope he gets better :(



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VVIdHPG0wYI

Open this video to see how it's played.
Left4dead gameplay !

Blogthings

i was bored and then i saw ash did a quiz. So i did one too.

This one was "how depressed are you? quiz"

My results;

Your Depression Level: 96%

You seem to be severely depressed.
You should seek immediate attention from your physician.
Depression can be cured - you just need to take the first step.

Obsessive

It's so obvious that im bored and tht i got nothing to do, since i didnt go to school. And im so obsessed over the phone. I've been thinking about it, browsing about it, dreaming about it. It's like the phone has to be mine :(
I even told my tuisyen teacher about it, so tht maybe he cn get a hint on what i want for my brdy.
Everytime my mom and dad goes to lowyatt, i ask them to browse more about the phone and ask them how much is the price, since maybe, i can know my aim, if lowyatt has a lower price for the phone, which is of course lower than rm920. Who knows there's like a small2 hidden place somewhere around lowyatt tht sells the phone lower than the price i know.
At least 800 something. God :(
Iman wants a corby txt, which she found at courts mamoth, idk how to spell that. But it's pretty reasonable, like 500 something like that! How come her corby is cheaper than mine. Well the phone she wanted was more to a shape like the bb phone. And mine's more the shape like u know wht. I didnt want a serious looking phone, like N97 or N900. Bcause i'll feel old eventhough it has a lot of great stuff in it and it's nokia. which is good. Nokia is a rlly good brand but the designs are not so good.
So yeah, i rlly hope i cn get the phone i want for my brdy.

P/s: And now ash wants corby cool. hahaha. she thinks its cute.

Great so iman wants corby txt, ash wants corby cool and i want corby pro.

Us and our corbies haha

Chat(s)

Boring today so had a chat with my tuisyen teacher. Some of my convo with cikgu anthonyy

Me

CIKGU I WANT A NEW PHONE

1:06pmAnthony

in japan all is opposite

NEW phone

coool

1:07pmMe

japan all small?

but i dont have enugh money

haha, i want one, i dont have one

1:07pmAnthony

japanese seat smaller..have u seen japanese coke can

cups

train seat

all smaller

than malaysia

u get a special gift from me

on your 16 birthday

:)

surprise

1:08pmMe

haha, havent seen anything from japan

1:08pmAnthony

it will be a great gift to u

1:08pmMe

YEAYY!!

like what?

a phone?

:D

1:08pmAnthony

yeaaah

hahahaha

maybe

:)

i'm pretty sure i look huge in japan

my iphone is so fragile

iphone cant drop

once drop its disaster

1:10pmMe

hahaha whatever it is, if u wanna browse more about the phone i want its, samsung corbypro b5310. :D haha but its 920 at lowyatt, so very mahal

haha im pretty sure every malaysian does

maybe thts why the white people call them yellow people

-.-"

really?

i thought i phone is rlly hardcore

1:11pmAnthony

i will check out the samsung corbypro

ic

probably it resistant to many but not when its drop

this iphone its sensitive

the cool part its application

1:12pmMe

:D haha, yeaaah i heard theres a lot of applications

scanner and all

1:13pmAnthony

yeaah..its more than 100 000 applications

can tract any of iphone user around the world

1:13pmMe

no wonder its expensive

thats coool!

1:13pmAnthony

yeaah

if faroq use it..u can detect wherever he is

1:14pmMe

without asking for his permission?

haha

1:14pmAnthony

hahaha..as long he use the iphone

1:14pmMe

haha gempak la :D

Anthony

someone created this application

it can also tell how much more to run or how many more calories

to burn

1:15pmMe

AAAH I WANT THT ONE HAHA

1:15pmAnthony

hahaha

no more samsung

:)

1:15pmMe

haha nolaa, i still want samsung

1:16pmAnthony

ic

1:16pmMe

coz i dont like touchscreen

1:16pmAnthony

ohh

1:16pmMe

i mean the samsung corby pro, it has a qwerty keyboard with touchscreen but i prefer qwerty

haha

1:16pmAnthony

hahaha ic

1:16pmMe

coz my thumbs big and when i type at a touchscreen phone, always wrong spellings

1:16pmAnthony

got its pro

goodness

1:17pmMe

haha yeap yeap!

Phone

I want a new phoneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

I seriously want one :( And at lowyatt, its' RM920.
I know its not tht mhal for some people, but it is for me, especially when i alrdy spend most of my money for clothes and i have to use my own money. And i dont even get tht much of pocket money, 1 day would only be around 5 bucks, thts if i stayback. Unless if it was 10 bucks a day, i would be getting tht phone by now !

I want tht phone so badly, it's CorbyPro B5310 - Samsung. And it's so simple, :'/

Where cn i find a job? And get more money? But im still 16 -.-"

Cramps

Well i was supposed to update my blog yesterday about what happened, but so i'll just update it now about yesterday. Well, when i woke up this morning, i had cramps. Only at the legs of course, i went jogging yesterday with hanna around my house area, and i forgot to warm up, what i did was putting on my mp3, and jog jog jog, then go up the hill by running and going down, by running again. I ran non stop, because i heard about what my mom said "i heard from the tv, they said that, if u jog, its to maintain ur health, if u run, ur trying to burn more calories than u gain" So i was like, okayy, i aint gonna jog just like that. I don't only wanna maintain my health, i wanna lose weight. I feel so fat these days. Or maybe i am, i think i am. Well people say i have put on weight, even a kid can notice that. And so, i wanted to change some things. I wasn't happy with my body. I never was, so i just ran non stop while listening to some really upbeat songs. And think of nothing else, hanna was behind me, well pity her tht she couldnt catch up, because she was alrdy a skeleton. And when i jogged, i wanted to run for another round till there's this guy in white from "above", haha, from the apartment i mean, was waving and shouting hye, so he was watching me jog and all and i felt annoyed, so i ran into my house. Can i have peace? Aaaaaa, bising, he practically like shouted and everyone can hear him from the neighbourhood. I swear if i had a pan, i'll throw it to your head and make u fall from the hill.

MY LEGS HURT FYI!

Reverse

Had a big fight with my bestfriend, so very childish of us, but i dont think its childish, maybe we both were just tensed over things. Well, i had my time to settle my mood. And it worked, we're now back to O.K. not K.O. Well i msged her right after i watched bride wars, it was our movie, and when i heard the song priscilla ahn - dream, i cried coz it reminds me of my bestfriend and how stupid it was to fight. Or how guilty i am for ignoring her.
We have this strongest bond ever and we knew no one could break it. It was us, since the beginning. And she was the best, she still is. She's with me through everything. Always backing me up no matter what happens.
She'll be that girl i saved from go kart :) Haha. Im such a hero :') hahaha, kidding. She's my backbone :)

Feelings

I know my feelings are right, but i don't know if im gonna get a feedback for it, somehow i just find that when someone is bored, they go overboard with what they say, well i blame people on doing that, but even im acting like that. Darn it. Blame me all u want, haiyh, but i dont know. GAAH, so complicated, now there's like a bunch of list, with all the names, but i know his name is on top of the list. And im never eliminating him. And im stating a true fact of how im feeling.

Pondan oh pondan ...haha, i sound so weird, anyways thts just nickname. He's so gay, so gay, 100% gay, so gay gay gay gay, but i dont know why i like his personality, hahaha. Im a weird girl, arent i.

He just knows what to say, everytime, and i dont know, he's always making me feel so happy, hes such a cheerful person.
I adore him for his bright personality.

Buuuuuuuuuuuuut i dont think he even notices me, i mean he's not the hottest guy ever, not really that buff or anything or fit, but, i just dont think someone with a huge personality would even see the presence of this feeling.
Anyways, im not having high hopes, im only concentrating on my studies, which is much more important than anything else. Yes tasha, thats it, u go girl, hahaha.

Can't wait to meet him, :)

Absence2

SAME REASON, THEY'RE ALWAYS LATE, I DONT WANNA RISK IT, DONT WANNA GO TO SCHOOL, CAN'T THEY BE EARLY FOR ME, PLEASEEE! I BEEGGG YOUUU!
And im not playing with this, if u make me late, im not stepping out of the car!
Mark my words.

Changes

Things have been da bomb, i think. I don't know why i've turned into such a serious person, i mean i know i am, but lately, i've really been stressing on it. Between Iman and Ashiqin, im so serious and it's so weird because before this i've been the one that's like making the jokes and smiling all the time. But now it's like, after classes je, im like doing this serious face, andd then it takes time for me to heal back to my normal self. If i wanna say tht im stressed out, no im not, if u wanna say that im having grudges on people or something, i dont think so. I don't easily hate people. I have think of at least 10 reasons to hate a person. And so if i hate a person, u cn ask me those 10 reasons, i'd be happy to explain.
I think im in love with my studies, i've been loving addmath so much that i dont bother to crack up a joke or laugh like no one's business :( I was in class doing my addmath, i was doing logarithms, my fav <3, and then pn gan was checking on all the students, so u know i was still continuing my work and then when i answered the last question of question 6, and then when i sit up straight, i saw pn gan in front of my table, she was so close, and she was checking my work, i was having a heart attack but i didnt wanna show it la, haha very embarassing. I didnt even felt her aura or somekind of a vibe tht she was coming to me, i didnt hear anything, i didnt feel anything, I just feel like im in a blank room with my pen and pencils and my addmath book and doing it like im in my own world. It was like this work i concentrated too much on. It's like i give all my heart to it. No sound, no other walls, except for tht white room.
From that moment, I knew i was in love with addmath. Sounds so weird, but its something i can believe.


Well yeah i dont know why but i felt like theres a change in things, like me not being myself, even my friends are not being who they are. I mean theyre my bestfriends, theyre still them and i love them so much! Cant doubt that. But especially ashiqin, she's been so different, its like its not her O.O
Well now she dares to slap me for a lot of times and she bumps into me like so strongly.
She dares to hit me and all. And like i dont know all those harsh things and sometimes she does it at the wrong timing coz lately i havent been in a good mood. But its not because of my mood, i know tht, its just that, i dont feel respected. And it offends me. Like what did i do? I've been quiet thats all, and is tht even wrong.
And then she cuts in when i speak, and when i speak about something, its like its not even important to her, and when i tell her my problems, shes like u know, keep herself shut and talk about something else. No offence, and im sorry i dont have the guts to tell u this myself. But i know how u'll respond, u'll do that static pokerface of urs. And i just miss the old times where u cn just make stupid jokes without hitting me and stuff.
Because when everytime i tell u tht it hurts and all, u make a joke out of it, and when i tell u dont do tht its rude, u'll do it again and change topics. And i dont know other ways to confront u, coz u dont take what i say seriously and i gave up. I guess thts why i havent been tht much of a bubbly person. Im just afraid tht theres change and i wont like it.
But u know, ur my bestfriend and i have to deal with the change, and no matter how annoyed i am with you, or no matter how hard u hit me in the face, ur still my bestfriend and i wont just fight with u about me getting hit by u and u being like that. Sometimes i'll just have to sacrifice my feelings. Because thts what we do for our bestfriends, and i admit tht i always change my bestfriends, but thts just how i deal with change. And im not gonna do it with ashiqin.
So, this is my first challenge. I have to try dealing with it.
I have to find the strength. Because I love her <3

Absence

So i didn't go to school today, since im alrdy sick of being late and i alrdy got my 2nd warning letter, and trust me, im putting all the blame on my sisters especially, Ezza Melina, shes the worst, she is never early and she is one selfish person, always think about her timing and not other people, dh tau nak keluar pagi2 dgn adik sume, bangun la awal, mandi la awal, bila orng tegur die suruh cpt, die kata orng bising, i swear ur attitude is like shit. You need to change that. Start thinking about others, dgn her friends boleh pulak baik2, ckp lembut2, acting all supportive and nice, hello i can hear u when u talk otp or when u talk to ur friends when u meet them. Don't be such a two face, to your sisters u wanna act all rude. Im tired of your fucking attitude, PLEASE. CHANGE.

So yeah i still didnt wanna go to school eventhough my mom and dad asked me to, i pretended to sleep on the sofa. Anyways if i went to school today, i had to go on the public transport, mls. So let me have my break, im tired, im the only one who wakes up early in the morning and then go waking up everybdy else. Its so stupid seriously.
But my dad also the same, LAMBAT! dh kejut kan awal2, then mandi lmbt, i waited outside for 10 minutes. I kept my mouth shut coz we're only punctual when i open my mouth yelling "cpt laa! keluar pegy pakai kasut. can u hurry up! eyh cepat laa!" Yeah but today they wanna test my patience kan, test la.
I waited lama dkt luar, tunggu je if they would come outside and pakai kasut and open the gate and start the car engine. But they didnt and it was alrdy 6.55. and slalu keluar 6.45. and school starts at 7.15. So yes when the clock reaches 6.55, thats it, i went inside and slept on the sofa. Tadaaaaaa. nak lambat lagy kan? Lambat la :)

Tweetie :D

Okay so when i went home, i was too tired, so i watched tv , tasbih cinta and she wolf as always, NOAH IS SO CUTE, :D *serious anyways, after i was done, my sister brought the duckling inside, and it was sooooooo cute, I named him tweetie :D Haha. He had those cute flippers! And those small little wings :')
Haha its a very smart duckling, apart from when it fell on his back and his legs were like cycling. HAHA. And tht pun was also because after he swam, his tail and body was heavier than his head, HAHA. So cutee, he pooped a lot but it was only when he swam, -.-"
So after that, he dried himself up, he kept coming to me, i dont know why and he went jumping on top of my hand, he even pecks me on the cheek, :D
Hes so cute, then we fed him some bread, he likes it! haha so he became very tired and we put him in his cage again, "cage", it is a cage. HAHAHA

Destressing with my girls.

I had a good outing yesterday with my girls, Noor Ashiqin & Iman Nedhiera.

Okay so yesterday Ash arrived first, but it was only 15 minutes before i arrived. It was 11am, and damn we were early coz iman arrived around 1pm. So while waiting for iman, ash and I walked around the pavillion, bumped into some of our schoolmates. And kept walking. We were going to find some clothes. So we went to esprit, when we entered there, there was this really really pretty stripped blouse! And i had to have it, i just had to! But when i saw the price, it was 129.90. AND I WAS LIKE WHAT THE HELL! seriously, it was only a blouse but i was searching for something like that since last year and it was rlly pretty, and they only had L and XL, FISHSTICKS! So i tried it on first to see if it fits, and since im the type of girl who doesnt like something tht's body hugging and small, it was perfect for me :) So i used Ash's member card to buy the blouse ngehh made a small difference, it was 116.90. Haha. Thanks Ash for the add ons of 16.90 :P Haha. And then tadaaa it was finally mine!
I was so happy! And so we continued our walk, and then we passed by the cd store, so hehe we bought hannah montana the movie since Ash and I havent watched it. It was only 19.90, hehe cheap, pavillion was much more expensive. Okay so after that, we wanted to go down the manhattan fish market. So first we went down and down, and hahah this weird thing happened. We walked by this restaurant , and then this worker from the restaurant was like rushing towards the front of it, and when we walked by, he was looking at me and he was like "hyeee *smile" Soo yeah awkward, haha but i smiled back because he had nice eyes eventhough Ash said tht hes too old and tht he could be my father. I dont think so Ash :P haha. I think hes around his 30's, but so what, he still looks neat and charming :P a lil bit hahah.
I like neat guys, there so handsome haha.

Haha okay so we went down and bought tickets at tgv, "How to train your dragon", the movie was around 2.20. and so iman arrived a few minutes after that, we met her in front of coach. Weirdly, i thnk there was this guy who stopped and looked at me, like hes seen me somewhere, i think he was familliar to me too but i wouldnt know coz i didnt care and coz i didnt wear my specs hehe. And my power's 500, dont blame me, sorry :P
So i just went off with ash and Iman and we went downstairs for lunch. Okay first planning, manhattan fish market, then it was full, then next secret recipe, then full, then a&w then full then we went to subway then ngeeeh wasnt tht hungry, so we just went to dunkin donuts, since its something light to fill up our tummy :)
I cant believe i bought ice coffee, the last time i drank coffee was standard 6 and i hate coffee. Haha.
I ate some donuts and sandwiches. same with Ash, Iman ate a piece of choc cake with a donut and some latte? Haha. Okay so then we rushed up to tgv and we went into the cinema. Haha ohhh and there was this air pollution because there was this three girls who opened their shoes before the movie starts, its like a comfort thing for them, namely Ash , Iman and I. HAHAHA. Nolaa wasnt even smelly, we had good feet odour. Hehe. So the movie started. I got annoyed by the kid behind my seat because she kept kicking my seat , oh and yeah iman's too. I got so annoyed but i couldnt do anything because it was a kid. Even if i tell her not to do it , she wouldnt even be tht considerate to not. If she was my kid, i'd punch her in the face. Then ash said "i would never ever let tasha babysit my kids in the future" hahaha. Nolaa, i mean like i wouldnt literally punch her in the face, i would just maybe tie up her feet if she does tht, but im sure my kid in the future wouldnt behave like that. Iman looked back for a few times and gave the kid the "fierce look" but see she didnt even get it. WHERE ARE THE PARENTS, PLEASE GUIDE YOUR KIDS TO BEHAVE!
Haiiyhh.
But we enjoyed the movie, it was so cute, the dragon looked like a cat. Hehe and they named him toothless :P hahaha. So yeah then we continued our walk to find putri's and iman's mom's brdy present, but then around 4.00 something my dad called and told me hes picking me up in 5 minutes, so haiyh, iman and Ash gave me tht look. Im so sorry i had to go back early, i didnt even know i had to :/
I'll make it up to u guys! So then every 30 minutes, i called them to check up on them. And they said they alrdy bought this cute shirt fr putri at PDI. So im just glad, :)
Haha, i had fun with u guys, we'll do this again next time ! Love u girls :)

These Days

It has been really stressful lately, really really stressful. My head is full of studies. Its so true when the teachers said that form 4 is wayy different than form 3. There's studies and there's revising, sometimes i even feel like sleeping in the class cause of the insufficient time to sleep. It's really making my mind tired. And this stress made me go all angry and nuts almost all the time, and i tend to aim it to my friends. Which is rlly selfish of me. But then in the end, i'll just realize its stupid and apologise. And then i do it again when i am. Haha :D
That's one of my flaws. I cant deny it. Im not all suit up for a perfect impression.
People make mistakes. And i just salute those people who can deal with them not being perfect.
Because this is the world. It doesnt revolve around you. It revolves around everybdy. And even if u think so hard that the important matters for u are the only thing in the orbit, you're wrong.
I wanna make a change. I really do. I don't know why i've been so sensitive lately.
I needed to make a pidato for my bm lisan, and i wanted to do about pembuangan bayi.
So i googled about it, and saw pictures of the babies being thrown away. And i cant help it but to cry, cry thinking that the babies were crying. Thinking, wheres my family, where are they? Why am i here all alone, im hungry and im cold.
And dont ever think that they're thrown at a secure place, there's this baby, it came out at the newspaper.
The baby was found by a kid if im not mistaken or the pasukan khas pembuangan bayi, they found the baby in a rubbish bin, without the baby's arms. And then they saw a dog carrying it in his mouth. The baby's arms. And i actually felt that pain the baby felt. Yes well maybe as what iman said, "alaa the baby kan slalu tk rasa ape, im sure he didnt feel it". But he's still a human being. He is god's creation. And everyone has feelings. No matter how small or big or young or old they are. We are all humans. We have feelings. We got stimulus for god sake, imagining myself being thrown away and feeling that pain, the pain that the dog actually separated my arms with my body. That's just u know what im gonna say.WHAT DID THEY DO WRONG? THE BABIES DIDNT DO ANYTHING WRONG! and i know u f*ers in this world are trying to hide what you guys did wrong. Have sex la lagy! Go get urself pregnant! And then when u want ur life and ur world to go the way you want it to be, and then u go throwing something u think thats going to ruin ur whole life.
You people never think of the consequences! You make babies because you want a happy life and the relationship u built with the person u love! Which is marriage! Not just hey ur sexy, im hot, want my number? Lets book a motel. PLEASE JUST PLEASE F*CKING THINK!

Please, just have a long thought about whatever you wanna do in life. Because a small matter changes everything, in your life. And have pity to them that's being thrown away eventhough they did nothing wrong. I beg you.