No destination

When i think of new years, i feel like crying. I feel like being alone. I just i dont know... i just dont

Orientation Day for the Form 1

These are the senior and junior prefects :)

Left senior, right junior :P

And im doing yoga! :D (haha iman is on MY right and dian is on MY left)

You guys did a great job with the orientation :D

THIS ONE IS SOOOOO UNEXPECTED :O

A junior prefect took this picture of me strutting, hehe not rlly strutting but i was just wearing my blazer, THEY CHEEKKYY JUNIOR PREFECTS! -.-"

They ended up laughing like hell after tht hah -.-"

So i arrived at school 5 minutes bfr 8am, which was the time tht i was supposed to arrive :P 10 prefects of morning session had to come to help out for the orientation day and 10 prefects from afternoon session also had to help out. I was one of the morning session prefects who volunteered to help :) It was definitely worth it. At first we were supposed to ask them to line up in front of the registration table to know which class they were assigned to. My younger sister, Eimaan Aisya got into 1B. So anyways after they knew what class they were in, they lined up again in the tennis court. And then Deborah asked all of the prefects to choose a class. In one class, theres a morning session prefect and an afternoon session prefect. I head to 1U bcause for 1B Intan alrdy chose it. And most of the people in 1U are friends with my younger sister. So it was fun to bully them :) Haha at first we checked their names and make sure they were there. It was funny, bcause everytime i passed by them, they kept quiet and everytime i was gone, they started talking again and it happened over and over and over again. Haha i think they were scared :P Well they were supposed to keep quiet but then alaa theyre just kids, so i cut them some slack by asking them to keep talking, :P haha but quietly la. They knew i was Eimaan's sister so they laughed aftr i asked them to do tht. And then we, prefects escorted them to their class, since they were not familliar with the place. I just wanna make them feel like home, you know make them feel like form 1 is a good start for new things, a comfortable place for them to study, and with all the facilites, with the unique structure of the school, to make them feel proud of being a cbn-er and actually do great things to make the school proud and not really have that negative bad attitude and ruin the school's reputation by being bad students and have bad track records, and have all those cliques. Since i know that SK cbn 1 and SK cbn 2, kinda don't like each othr, i mean for sekolah rendah, i was like tht also, and when i came into form 1, i was like okayy i dont want any friend s from cbn 2, and all and thought they were rlly bad students and kids. But then theyre actually not bad, not bad at all, im mostly friends with them now than i am with cbn 1 students :) Not saying that cbn 1 is not great, it is but to have some kind of rival thing going on, i dont think it will help them get through the form ones :)

Okay so they arrived at their class and then sat at whichever place they chose. I and the aftrnoon session prefect, just asked them to introduce themselves and talk abt their upsr results. It was a good start and then the class teacher came in and, okay so Teoh and I helped the teacher by giving out some form 1 forms, like the takwim and the biodata pelajar, maklumat murid, koko register forms, and the schedule for it, and etc. Most of them were actually blur, so Teoh and I had to help them by arranging it and checking them every second. So tht they know what the teacher is talking abt. Well I felt relieve because most of them didnt mind asking me questions. I think it was because Teoh was more shy, most of the talking came from me anyways. And I approached them without being called. I dont want them to feel stuck and feel lost and end up asking the teacher when shes explaining and everything will just be so sloowwww and we'll feel like useless people -.-" Haha. Anyways theyre new, so they deserve the help :)

When theyre done with the forms, Teoh and I had to bring them on a tour to the whole school! which was exciting :D Teoh couldnt rlly explain a lot, i dont know why she finds it hard to explain and show them the school so she just sat at the back of the line to make sure that the class lines were straight and in an orderly manner. I was in front of the class line and i felt like a tour guide :D First i showed them the form 1 blocks, where all the form 1's from B to A located at. then i brought them to the science labs one level up, and they were just excited and amazed looking at the science labs, there were about 6 or 7 labs at tht floor and i guess theyre not used to the environment of studying in a lab :) So i brought them down again and showed them the lockers section for the form 1's and then brought them up at Pink Dorm where the form six classes are at. So then brought them down down. haha down down and showed them the form 3 blocks, some of them were like "oooo its haunted, theres ghosts there" and i told them tht there were no ghosts, i mean why shuld i scare them? even if its true :P haha.

And then i showed them the form 2 classes, and showed them my class also :D Showed them the toilet, the frangipani tree. So i brought them to the canteen aftr tht and explained to the whole class about sitting in their own class tables. Thyre supposed to u know sit in their own tables and clean up for their class. The bengkel, the library and the art's room. Everything la :D So then when i was done, i brought them to the class again since it was drizzling and i didnt want them to get sick. All of the parents were looking at me and they even took pictures. Aint tht weird haha, some of them even followed the tour? HAHA.

Okay then when they arrived back at the class, I briefed them a lil bit about the school rules. All the basics la like not bringing any highlighter, liquid paper, marker, handphones, walkman, psp, and all those stuff. But im sure tht theyre very innocent :) So i dont wanna pollute their mind though i did tell them that even if they try to hide their phones and all. The prefects would know where they are because its their routine, u know to check and know where it is. We've gone through a lot of things and we would know. So they were like oooo ahahaha.

Some of them also asked how the prefects are, and i said that the afternoon session prefects are really nice but theyre strict when theyre on duty but theyre always helpful and approachable and i saw them feeling more relieved about being open to us :) they also asked me if they would see me again, and i told them tht i was a morning session prefect, the senior prefect so i wont be meeting them anymore as im only in charge of the morning session which is form 3,4 and 5 :)

Then then then , they were like "alaaaa kenapa kakak tkde dlm afternoon session? Tk best la mcm ni, stayback la skjp jumpa kitaorng" hahaha i just knew them for 2 hours and they alrdy said tht, i was aww-ed and i felt flattered :) I mean i love kids, theyre not actually kids but haha i see them as little kids still :)

After i finished briefing them about the school rules, they started asking abt the school's history and i told them some about it :P hahaha. So then Deborah the head prefect passed by the class and allow me to let them go back. So i did and when i was waiting outside the class, some of the form ones just now came to me and salam and cium my hand and even wnted to hug me while saying thank you for everything :')

AWWWW it was the best part ever, i felt like i really helped them feel comfortable and i heard some of them telling their friends tht it was a fun time :)

They even showed me to their friends saying tht im cool :P haha thank u thank u.

P/S: I ALSO ANNOUNCED TO THEM TO BULLY MY YOUNGER SISTER EIMAAN AISYA FROM 1B, PLEASE AND THANK U HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA,

eimaan hit me when her friends told her abt it -.-" dammnn it.

Iman Nedhiera

It's okay if you have challenges like this, you're a really talented girl and you have potential to be anything that you want to be. People not having faith in you is one of the challenges god sent to you, to see how much you really want it. To see if you really believe in yourself. To see if people can just poke you and you fall, or to see if you're still standing up even if people push you with greater force. Trust me, I don't think you're even close to weak. You have a strong spirit and belief, and i know you'll fight for what you believe in. Which is yourself. The greatest or the most important thing here is yourself. Maybe it's just a test to see if you're really sure about wanting to do something tht you think is enjoyable and passionate for you. And since you got your test now, im sure you are more strong and more believing in wanting it which shows that it's really meant for you. So go on with it and keep believing in yourself because I believe in you and no matter what, im always here supporting you if things go wrong or right :)

Great Impact

Just watched pearl harbor yesterday night with my family, except for my dad. It is such an amazing movie, i just couldn't stand it. It made me cry instantly and I couldn't even hold on to tht crying feeling. Kate Beckinsale is such a beautiful girl and josh hartnett is so good looking, oh yea including ben affleck.

Love is such a great thing, the power is so great. It hurts you in many ways and also accompany you in many ways. Maybe if this situation happens in real life, as in like the situation where evelyn fell in love with danny when rafe was gone. Guys out there would say tht evelyn is a bitch, a heartless person, a two faced girl, a person with no feelings, but i really think that she was amazingly hurt deep inside her heart and a part of her just crashed and died. Just like when she said that when Rafe died, she died too. Although it was kinda dissapointing that evelyn fell in love with Danny but maybe it's the path tht she should choose. God wanted to show her the truth. The supposingly. Sometimes our plan don't go the way we want it to be. It would try to take other routes. It's not just a highway to ur destination, that is definitely not life. There would be challenges. This movie officially showed me how big love is, and it made me more scared to be involved with it. Sometimes people think that perfection is everything in love. They think that love should be predictable, should be based on their rules. Like loyalty, trust, faith, and many more. But things in love can do wrong. And yes you can cry bcause of it but maybe that's what god wants you to learn. God wants you to be stronger. God wants you to understand more. God wants to test you, to test your patience. And i know its never easy to do that, but always remember that, loving yourself and loving god is more important than loving anyone else. You might make mistakes, you might lose your mind or your head for awhile , because of love but don't suffer too long for it, not because it is not worth it but because you know this is just another test that was brought down by god. I know you see life as cruel, unfair and dissapointing but those things are the guides that will bring you to what you are meant for. And patience brings you more closer to it faster.

Edu Fair Maniac!

3 education fairs to go to!

Facon Education Fair 2011

Time: 11am - 6pm

Venue: Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre

Date: Mar 12 & 13 (Sat & Sun)

Star Education Fair 2011

Date: 8th & 9th January 2011 (Saturday & Sunday)
Time: 11.00am - 7.00pm
Venue: Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre

Education & Further Studies Fair 2010

Time: 11am - 6pm

Venue: Midvalley, Hall 1, 2, & Atrium

Date: 18-19 december 2010

DROOLS!

This dress is so sweeett, i wntt :D

Anger

You made me this way

As sweet as honey ;)

Haha i know im so old fashioned, so instead of using more chemicals to heal my blemishes and acnes/pimples, i tried using honey! Pure honeyy, and i know tht its very anti oxidant, so its rlly good for acnes the most. I mean at the same time, it gives you the sweet smell when u apply it to ur face! :)

I know its actually more suitable for people with dry skin oh yeah and did i tell you it cn also treat excema? Though i dont have ecxema and my skin type is more to oily, no actually mine is both dry and oily, so i think mine is more to normal skin type. Honey could also a natural antiseptic! If u have any cuts or wounds, u cn just apply the honey on it, it actually helps you prevent infections. oh yeah and ulcers too! I couldn't find any manuka honey, i just used whatever i had in my kitchen, i mean manuka honey is the best type of honey for a facial pack, especially when it's the most anti oxidant honey. And the manuka honey comes from bushes of new zealand ! Although i would advice those who rlly have oily skin, like really really oily skin, dont use honey on ur face more than 2 times or 3 times a week, just try once or twice, coz its also a combo of moisturizer and healing process of acne. It gives u both effect. hehe i enjoyed honey in both ways today! while putting it as a face pack, i had some as a treat too :P

Now, i rlly gotta do a shopping list bfr going shopping (myb) this sunday or bfr my vacation or bfr my edufair and shopping next week! Gotta check my closet, gotta refill my facials and masks. I can't live without them!

They're my boyfriends :) my precious precious boyfriends.

I think i also gotta put lotion tht contains high lemon concentration and aloe vera gel in my shopping list. Lemon could help me fix my dark-yellowish skin. And aloe vera will heal and soothe and cools my acne scars or mybe if i have sunburns later on :o

Oh yes and i have to buy everything tht i need bfr the points in my watson card expires, -.-" can't believe its gonna expire this 31st december, ngeeehh, well good thing the card never expires, now i gotta browse through the vouchers AGAIN to see if im gonna use it soon. Bye! :D

Moisture

I got myself a watson membership card! haha why should i even brag about that small thing? Well maybe bcause im a pharmacyy freak >:) Everytime i go out, WITHOUT fail, i always go to watson or guardian to browse through new stuffs. Like skin care products, or face masks, or lotions and moisturizers, or even hair products! It's just soooo fun and exciting, i mean watson is so the new kinokuniya :D Okay now i sound so lame and so bimbo ish. But watson is rlly exciting, i mean you can actually just google about the organic stuff or the chemicals, and what it does for your skin, and how it actually operates together to give different effects to it and thinking of how it would suit the skin of different people, its magic on how it could actually reacts and hve a total feedback, though analyzing it to be an effective product is another matter :)

I love watson! and i bought avocado & oatmeal clay mask from freeman! it smells so good and it makes ur skin so soft, :) but its not suitable for oily skin type. But u cn still try it coz oatmeal is still suitable :)

To be honest, i am obsessed with skin products, which i think actually brings my skin to a worst condition, :P i think la hahaha. I keep changing facial wash, eyh no eyh yes, ive changed it for three or four times,clean and clear, himalaya, oxy, and now body shop. Haha i dont think im gonna change body shop, coz tea tree oil for body shop is really good :) But if i dont change my facial wash, i'll just change my skin's moisturizer and my lotion, still cant find the suitable one, im still using the vaseline healthy white lotion, but im thinking of changing it to garnier light lotion. Im kinda tan -.-' and lemon is actually kinda corrosive so it cn actually improve the skin's complexion :D

anyways gonna go now! got things to do :) byee!

I've heard enough bullshits

So you really think im gonna be that brainless to actually believe you ? Haha u know i actually am kinda disgusted with people that's too emo. But i am myself, i just pretend that im not. I disgust myself. I disgust myself everytime i hear every bullshit that comes from your mouth, bcause i am not that easy and i am not tht type of girl where u cn just recycle me. So do yourself a favor, plant a brain in your head and see if it even functions, if you need some directions or a mechanic for that, just call me, im rdy to help.

Rubbish

Sometimes you really do need someone to count on to, no matter how strong and tough you are. But me, believing that i needed you, was the biggest mistake i have made. In my life. It really was.

Truth is

I don't know the truth behind everything, i don't know the exact purpose of doing something, people can have different opinians on what they think about, they can have the confidence to support what they say bcause they believe in it. That is all we have, we have our own support to actually convince ourselves that what we do is for the best. When you don't know a thing about what the best is...

There is no right or wrong, there's just results. To see which opinian states the high ranking results. It's all an experiment, it's either you're committing yourself to involve in it or to just arrange one and find your apparatus and materials. Just know that the results are always different. And it doesn't have to be the same, no one said it has to be the same. No one said we have to agree, but no one also said we have to fight when we disagree. It's stupid how someone can be misunderstood by the tone of the voice but it is also done by so many people. It's something you can't avoid. Our voice is just like our face impression. It's lyrics, descriptions, and our confidence. It shows and let people read what you really think and what you really wanna give out. It's how strong you really mean something.

So, I say, even if you disagree with other people, even if you know what you do is something that's really effective and that you would appreciate it if someone else would rlly consider going your way, don't, don't fight for your ideas. Because in the end, you are the only one who could succeed in making it happen. Although, trying to support others are also recommended. Supporting and believing others are just like you imagining yourself being them and getting the support you need. And trust me, it's the greatest thing you could ever contribute to other people. But don't forget to believe in yourself. Because you are the manager, organizer, contributor, sponsors, army, and the director to your own ideas and inspirations. It is all in you. Yourself.

the way to beat them is to stop fighting them.

MASKS

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
ASHIQIN IS KILLING ME now aahhhhh
hhhahaha WE LOOK HOT, DONT WE? hahaha
im the left one, yes and ashiqin is the one on the right side :P
WHAT A BEAUTIFUL CHOCOLATE LADY! - white chicks

Sleepovah suck on tht ! -.-"

fried mars bars! :D yumm!

THESE ARE THE BURGERS WE MADE! :D

MY TWO MONKEY BUDDIES PLAYING BUBBLES! Me less than three you Iman & Ash :)

MEET TOOTHLESS!

And these are my bestfriends, simple as tht :)

Now, i dont know wht to update, and what to say but i love the sleepover and i sound like a douche.
I dont know why and i dont know wht, i dont know why i said i dont know why and i dont know what.
Ashiqin is reading this. So i have to crab, nowwww. Let me show u something, wait *uploading pictures

edtgftctdsgdtrferefrdfrwfdsdjsadbjabdflsa- hihihi this is not ashiqin

well i just edited it but aftr this la haha,
i love sleeping over at ashiqin's place, its funn! and we even made our own burgers, i know u might think "so its just a burger, i cn cook othr cmplicated things" bt its not about doing whts simple and whts not, its about doing it with ur bestfriends, or in my way, looking at ur friends doing it :P haha.
I had a fun time. I mean spending time with Ashiqin and Iman is like something tht i'll never get to describe. It's just this happy feeling in myself. I mean of course la, thyre my bestfriends, why wouldnt i feel happy when im hanging out with them? they're the greatest friends i'll ever have. And im probably gonna grow old with them & not with a husband :P

We played bubbles, and we just sat outside and enjoyed the fresh air. The bubbles were big and small, and we popped it , one by one HAHAHAAHAH, tht was random -.-"

we also fried mars bars! it was delicious! u have to try it trust me,
Its one cup of all purpose flour, then mix it with one cup of milk, then mix it with one egg, and one teaspoon of oil, TADAAAAA, then u just dip the mars bars into it and fry it! :D

Anyways, what else did we do? Oh yeah we watched white chicks,
UR MOMMA SO whatever joke tht was, and I NEED PROFESSIONAL HELP, DR.PHIL, OPRAH! anddd maybe even HOLD MY POODLE YAA HOLD IT YAA, YOU WANT SOME A THIS! HAA U WANT SOME OF THIS! I'LL TAKE BOTH OF U! hahahahaha. It was freaking funny and we watched tht while eating some snacksyypoodle, HAHA.
It was fun to hang out with my girls :)

OHYEAAHHH, and then iman had to go back :( it was a very sad moment, we cried in front of the door, and the door said dont cry so we didnt.
hahahahah, the door was wise :')
So then we went upstairs, and planned othr things, such as doing parodys! and SHOWERDYS,
crazy i know and we watched mean girls, while hving our hot CHOCOLATE WITH MARSHMALLOWWWWSSS, SALOOOWSS, BAD ASS MC! hahahaa swear it was funnyy,
"I HAVE A BIG FAT LESBIAN CRUSH ON YOU! SUCK ON THAT!" one of the lines in mean girls, haahaha i havent watched mean girls for ageeess, and watching it brings back memories.
Haha it was just so funn and comfyy and lalalalal in lala land.
I crap a lot tonight, i'll probably drool when i sleep and think of saw's face choking my ass. Although, is there such thing as choking and ass in a sentence? i guess not, ashiqin's theory predicted tht i would fart non stop when tht happens. so i guess thts not happening, know why saw suddenly came up? coz we watched it a few minutes ago! IT WAS SCARY ASH PEED BESIDE ME Hhahhahahahaha OKOK tht was a joke, she didnt, but we both did pee when we went upstairs, oh and did i tell u tht i had to let ashiqin go up the stairs first bcause she was scared hahaha, she covered her face most of the time we were watching the saw movie. haha great job ash, it was rllllly scary, wasnt it?
NOW, LETS TALK BUSINESS, i look like dark knight.
WARNING: DONT WATCH THIS UNLESS U WNT TO SLEEP TONIGHT,

We wore masks, not masks as in those plastic ones, we wore facial masks, from MONTAGNE JEUNESSE! ash tried the chocolate and mine was the white chocolate, damn mine was veryyyyy strong, i mean the smell, when i took pictures of myself, i saw dark knight at my own reflection, i'll show u aftr this, maybe, i'll think about it.
oh yeah and did i tell u we also watched mamma mia!
Ashiqin is the short old ladyy who wants to be the lone wolf *au au au au
I am meryl streep, bcause im emo and i like to cry hahahahaha kidding, and im gonna marry a guy named sam carmicheal, and
iman is the tallest old lady, who does botox and uses donkey testicles, good job iman (Y) and young guys wnt her, u know the nigga with the curly hair? yeah thts the one hahahahhahaa.

THE END THANK YOU! and yes this is me, im wearing the statue of liberty's crown and wore facial masks, the lady has turned white!
GOODBYE!

BE MEAN TO ME

a girl wants a guy who loves her, but gives her space

comforts her, but is mean to her sometimes.

-cougar town (rephrased by ashiqin)

True statement

sometimes I imagine you as that old single lady

or the one yang ramai anak

it's either one - noor ashiqin

I completely agree with this, and i think im gonna end up being the first one haha

Inspirational songs

Insha Allah - Maher Zain :)

Marshanda - Ketulusan Hati

Sherina - Jalan Cinta

One in a million (2)

Haha i salute the girl! It's not easy to just fall for someone, anddd she has the guts to prove it. Hahaha. But i think this music video is cute, i mean love the choreography. It's so adorable, :)

31st Education & Further Studies Fair
Mid Valley Exhibition Centre,
18-19 Dec 2010 (Sat & Sun)
11 - 6PM
Admission is free

I am excited to be making yet another splash at the 31st Education & Further Studies Fair. Get coursesNOW! magazines at a bargain: Get the latest copy of my magazines at RM5.00 each only (usual price RM6.50). Or, subscribe to all 6 issues for a knock-out deal of RM18.00!

Venue : hall 1,2 & atrium :)

Worries

I've been doing a lot of research about actuarial science. I don't know why, but there's something about it tht just pulls me in. And i just know how much of an analytical person i am to actually match myself with this career.

To consider being an actuary, one must have the following qualities:

• An outstanding student in mathematics.
• Love to do research and to learn and solve complicated problems.
• Love strategic games like chess and computer games.
• Love to write and communicate with other people.

• Interested in history, social, legal and political issues.

• Self motivated and good leadership qualities..

got it from a website about the introduction of actuarial science. well, i dont know if im outstanding in mathematics. But i do love it and i know its my passion. And i love doing researches, and haha cmplicated problems, im always there. Well i kinda think chess is boring but its fun when u get to take the soldier and make voices with it and kiill the queen or king by jumping on it ahhaaha sorry. Computer games, of course, like shockwave. cooking games HAHAHAH im seriously joking with myself but i do love computer games. Any type of computer games. I love to write, why do u think im blogging now? Communication skills are very important in this course, so i would consider myself being an average person with communication skills.

I dislike history hahaha, but im a little bit interested in political issues, especially when u get to debate on it.

I am self motivated but i dont know abt the leadership qualities. Im gonna do more research on actuarial science. As i would like to find out on which i can actually major in.

Is it financial security, insurance or investment management or maybe more to fund management. we will see :)

I cannot wait to actually get myself involved with this challenging subject as ive heard tht a lot of people saying tht this subject is difficult. But i'll take tht as a challenge. I will see and analyse more on this. Not guaranteed it will be my final choice but i do know this would be at the top of my list.

Ages

I can't believe i even survived in holding on to a friendship. Yesterday was one difficult day i have ever had. I haven't had a breakdown for ages. I haven't cry the way i cried yesterday for ages. Ages ages ages. Everything it's all ages. Bfr i start talking abt anything more detailed.

I really wanna thank Danial. Danial, if ur reading this, haha u know its u and not some othr danial. Thank you so much for listening. Thank you so much for being there for me. I know i cn always count on you. Im sorry you had to waste ur time listening to me cry and ur credit of course. Thank you for the comfort. I felt really comfortable crying to you. I know tht i have to at least feel embarassed tht i cried to you. I do, i am but thts just bcause im embarassed tht a 16 year old like me could cry tht way. I think this is where my problem is, i guess i thought tht i could always be so composed. So secure. So uptight and controlled. I forgot that you can cry and get hurt and just get frustrated about anything at whatever age u are. I am so ego. I had too much anger in myself but you understood me right away. You have done a lot for me. I can never count those things. You're such a good person to me. Really u are. Remember that day when we were on the phone and that we were talking about friendship? I told you that I would do anything to not lose this friendship. That this friendship was important to me. This friendship is precious. Im not really good in expressing myself, i suck in this im sorry but i just want to tell you that i am so thankful to god that i have a person like you in my life. I am so thankful to have such a caring friend. And that I would never want to lose you. And i want you to always remember that, I love you. As a brother and a bestfriend to me. Thank you Danial, you're the best.



And im so glad i had a very open minded session with my bestfriends Ashiqin and Iman. They are both so important to me. Ashiqin could sometimes be like my elder sister and also my younger sister. And iman, she's definitely like a little sister to me. I mean i dont see this friendship just as the roles of bestfriend. You guys are my family. I want to go through things with both of you. A part of me is so glad we had tht fight, and a part of me is just grateful we went stronger and much closer aftr the discussion yesterday. I definitely want this friendship to work out. I really do. You both are like the top of my loved ones list. And i know tht what i said is so corny and so blerghh common, like "alaa any girls cn say tht to their bestfriends and u know tulis, like kacang goreng only" but when i say that, i really mean it. I really really do mean it.
I can see myself laughing with you guys until we are all wrinkled, I can see myself getting angry at you guys if u guys are too noisy or u know (jokey) HAHA , I cn see myself crying in both of u guys's arms. I can see myself turning to both of you when i have a hard time. I cn see myself waking up in a hospital seeing u both holding my hands. But in a way i cn also see myself seeing u guys doing a chicken dance when im terribly angry -.-" HAHAH. I can see my kid being the eldest among u guys punya children :P Thats wht u guys predicted kan! ahha. And i cn see my kid pulling Ashiqin's hair and messing up Iman's baking. HAHA, i cn see Iman's kid annoy mine and ashiqin's kid. I cn see my kid having tantrums and just being random about things or maybe even hit them (ashiqin and iman's kids) head with a calculator. I can see ashiqin's kid being the boss and being the leader in causing trouble and invite mine and iman's kid too. hahahaha, i cn see us moms or workers or wives being exhausted and having our one of those "time for a bestfriend's meeting up session" complaining about our kids, work, and husband. HAHA.
Ashiqin with the laptop in her hand and trying to finish assignments. Or trying to finish her articles or masterpiece in journalism :P
Iman with a labcoat in her bag, or with her documents and files and results about tests or experiments. And making her boooooring i dont care science theories HAHA. yes iman i know ur too smart :P haha.
And me with my calculator as a keychain, or a handy one in my handbag, and with my stationerys. Counting the statistics and going all economy as im going for actuarial science. haha.
Let's be those people. Let's still stick together in the future and have more fights and happy moments.
AND WHY LA I LOOK LIKE A WORKING MOM? when u guys think of me, always think of me hving kids, i have no idea why -.-" HAHAHA. Iman & Ash remember about the combined egg yolk thing? HAHA sakit tooooot. HAHAHA. I love u guys :')


I LOVE U GUYS LIKE HELL I CN DIE, I HOPE IMAN CN COME TO ASHIQIN'S HOUSE NEXT WEEK SO THT WE CN MOLEST ASHIQIN'S TEDDAYHH TOGEZHAHH! :D



Oh and not forgetting my other bestfriends, Nahra Yasmin & Atasha Liu, u both are also very special to me. Trust me. I love you guys sooo much i cant even describe it. You both are always there for me :)


Nahra thank you for asking me this question every 5 minutes, which is "ezleen, are you okay?" or "u have any stories?!" You were always so excited to hear about anything tht goes on with my life. And everytime i have my grumpy face on, ur always there to just pat my back and tell me tht its okayy or ur always there to just listen to me even when ur busy. Even when ur packed. even when ur mad. Ur alwys ready to comfort me. Now that's what i call bestfriend. I miss you alrdy :( And and im so glad you consider me as ur bestfriend. I thought u dint but remember at this one point u just turned to me and said "u know ezleen, i never had a bestfriend like u. Ur so different. and im so glad u are one" I was very touched and flattered and i just think tht i can never deserve tht coz im not much of a good bestfriend. And im sorry if you're mad tht i try to fix every of ur problems everytime u had one. Im just the type of person where i have to do something abt tht something tht bugs my loved ones. Especially you, coz you're my bestest friend and eventho we only started being close this year but always remember that you're someone i never want to lose. Bcause you cn make me happy just by hitting me. I dont like people hitting me but i dont know why i dont mind u hitting me. hahaha, and thank you for always trying to annoy me, it rlly cheered me up :') One more thing, thank you for telling me all the things abt ur life. It rlly makes me feel useful and it makes me feel like you cn actually trust me. Nahra you're just such a nice person, and ur so smart, i especially adore ur theories about life and the connections we have in this world. I cannot believe how understanding you are about life, about challenges about obstacles about emotions. Those are rlly complex things and you are one einstein to have such good thoughts about them. AND YOU ARE SO SMART I HATE U SO MUCH


And to atasha, you EXOTIC FACE PERSON, i am so jealouuss tht u ahh macha so cntik HAHA. But thts not the thing tht builds our friendship. I feel so open with you, i can tell you anything at anytime. You're just someone whos rlly strong and has been through a lot of things. And i adore you, i look up to you. Your strength and your preseverance just fascinates me. And you're always giving me the chance to learn about it. You're such a good listener and you're always there for me. You never like go all tantrum with me. even if u did, i wnt u to know tht im still here for you. Even if u offend me or even if u go all tantrum or pms or anything, i'll never go away and i'll always stand by you bcause you're my bestfriend. And i know tht i have a lot of bestfriends, but dont ever think tht i would rank you. Bcause no matter how many bestfriends i have in my life, you would be one of the most important ones. And you can count on me for cheering up or for the service of just listening. Maybe i might not be as strong and as smart as you about things or environment or about the engines in life. But I will always try my best to make you feel like im always here for you. You have taught me a lot of things. You have been my mentor in a lot of things. You're one of those special girls tht i cn laugh with about anything. And you never mind if i make any stupid jokes. haha. Although i know sometimes u cn get annoyed , im sorry :P But i wnt u to know atasha, tht i love you so much and you're already like a sister to me. Always remember tht.

AND TO NICOLE AND HARSHIAH, YOU BOTH ARE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME EVENTHOUGH SOMETIMES YOU CN DENY MY THEORIES AND I AM ALWYS ANNOYED WITH U GUYS'S THEORIES BUT I LOVE YOU BOTH still :) always will. You both are such good people and such good friends. And when im down, you guys are always trying to cheer me up, :)


and thank you also to denise choo for always being concern and always being so funnyy, :) You always cheer me up even when im annoyed. HAHAHHA. and sorry iman and I always whack u :P

Better

Im glad D is back with his girl :) Im glad i could help. You're my bestfriend.

Im sorry F, for assuming a lot of things. Im sorry. I know you were in a hard time but im just dissapointed tht u didnt turn to me. Bcause u know my nature, i feel better if someone actually depends on me to make things better.

I, we're preparing for an intervention. Yes A?

De & Na, im gonna get u both when school starts. You guys fooled me! hhaha but im glad u both are okay again :) makes me feel better tht i suceed in doing tht :P HAHAHAHA.


Alhamdulillah :)

Fixing & Losing

Talking about fixing things. I have this habit of listening to people's problems, and finding out the cause and trying to fix it. And trying to make everything better. So tht it would turn out well. And tht there's no misunderstanding and clashes. Especially for the people tht i care about. It makes me feel better to see the people i love and care about be happy. That's how i earn my happiness.

Bcause it actually makes me feel like i've done something in this world. And i feel like im contributing something to the people i love.

And i would always feel bad if it didnt work out. Bcause i feel like i've failed in doing something that i love. I failed making the people i care abt happy.

Yesterday was a day full with lessons.

I learnt about change. I learnt about losing someone. I learnt about making stupid desicions. I learnt about being ignorant. I learnt about helping people you love. I learnt about lending a shoulder for someone to cry on. I learnt about panic-ing. I learnt about losing the person you used to care about so much.

Yesterday i found out that my bestfriend is gone. The person tht i turned to everytime there was something wrong in my life. The person that was there to hear my thoughts, the person tht was there to help me stand up when i fell. The person tht would come to me everytime he needed someone to talk to. The person that could understand my jokes. The person that could calm me down. The person that would just make me laugh everytime i was grumpy. The person tht i backed up. The person tht was supporting me throughout the friendship. I can't believe tht person is gone. I don't know who he is anymore. And i feel like the person's dead.

And i feel so useless, bcause i cannot help D. I cannot help him getting the girl he loves. I cannot make him realise that he is more worthy than that. I cannot help him see the wider view of it. I cannot help him heal himself. I cannot block those bullets for him. And tht i cannot do anything when he tries to hurt himself. I feel so useless bcause my capability of helping him has a limit. I care about him so much. He's my bestfriend and all i can do is talk to him about it and make him feel better.

One in a million

I miss this song! it's been ages since i've actually listen to it.

I've been listening to this song over and over again. I miss it. One in a million ayy. These days, i've been really speechless about things. I don't know how to describe my feelings. I don't know how to say it. I don't know how to say things i actually feel or wnt or need. There was this time when i just had this greatest friend, we shared stories and we would turn to each other everytime we had any problems. Oh and how happy i was when i had tht friend. Im nt saying that im not friends with him anymore. I still do have him as a friend, but he's so different now. I wish i could have the old him but he's so happy to be the new him.
I wish i could just rewind everything bcause he's such a good bestfriend to me.
And i've lost another one, i feel like my statements are all wrong with him.
Why are things so different now? I've always supported you, especially when she's done something wrong. But why now, when im making my own desicion about things, you're going against it instead of supporting me?

And you, a selfish person. A childish person who thinks that you, yourself is mature. I am tired of you.

Oh great, im so bored this holiday. I don't know what to do. If im always online, my dad will be angry at me. But it's the holidays! And i just finished my finals and and this is holiday! school just ended, GIVE ME A BREAK!

A cruel phrank

subject: Hi baby :)
Between WH and ADN


ADN November 10 at 7:59pm
how are you? U added me ah apek, i think you're so hot! WOOSH! i need water :O


WH November 10 at 8:02pm Report
hahaha fine


ADN November 10 at 8:03pm
THE ONLY THING YOU CAN SAY IS FINE AH?! THERES NO "AWW U SO HOT TOO, I WANNA DIE!" :( Can i have ur number ?


WH November 10 at 8:04pm Report
i want my number u ask Ezleen Natasha


ADN November 10 at 8:07pm
you already have your own number, why you do you want your own number? OH WHY EZLEEN NATASHA? ARE YOU FRIENDS WITH HER OR SOMETHING? HOW COME SHE GOT YOUR NUMBER? SHE DOESN'T EVEN GIVE ME HER NUMBER. CAN I HAVE HERS?


WH November 10 at 8:09pm Report
ahhhhhhh
u need to ask her
becoz i ask her for number becoz my frenz known her so i take
if u an her number go ask her dont ask me
and i wit Ezleen natasha is just frenz nothing more

ADN November 10 at 8:13pm
WHY LA APEK! JUST GIVE ME HER NUMBER LA AND OH FINE, IF U DONT GIVE HER NUMBER, GIVE ME URS NOWW!
ahaha yalaa, i didn't say you and her got something whaat :P
YOU AHH SO HOTSTUFF WANN ! woosh!



WH November 10 at 8:14pm Report
as her first or not she dont fren me anymore


ADN November 10 at 8:17pm
THEN GIVE ME YOUR NUMBER NOW LA! eyyy wait, ur friends know her ahh? which friends? i wanna know also! why u care what she thinks so much, let her not be friends with you la!


WHNovember 10 at 8:29pm Report
hahaha u so bad i'm not giving u my number and her number


ADN November 10 at 8:29pm
WEYH BABY, WHY YOU TAK REPLY ME? I MISS YOU ALREADY BABY. YOU KNOW I TUMBUH JANGGUT WAITING FOR YOUR MESSAGE.
I'LL WAIT ALL ETERNITY FOR YOU ♥


WH November 10 at 8:30pm Report
mampus kau tunggu je sampai mati


ADN November 10 at 8:32pm
aku mati sekarang je la. kau pergi kat kubur aku panggil nama kau sekarang. see you baby, bring me cupcakes also ♥


WH November 10 at 8:33pm Report
mampus i'm not going


ADN November 10 at 8:34pm
oh play hard to get la now? I'll your balcony, wait for me you know tonight. See you baby ♥


WH November 10 at 8:38pm Report
not waiting for u


ADN November 10 at 8:39pm
THEN I STALK YOU LA, DON'T WAIT FOR ME ONE, I GO CATCH YOU MYSELF!


WH November 10 at 8:39pm Report
come la if u dare


ADN November 10 at 8:43pm
HEHE YOU NO SEE ME ONE! I TRANSPARENT ALRDY YOU KNOW I TOLD YOU I DIE TONIGHT WHAT , YOU NO SEE ME AT KUBUR, I SEE YOU AT HOME! TADAAA baby, wear lingerie okay ;)


WH November 10 at 8:45pm Report
kau ni org gila ke apa


ADN November 10 at 8:47pm
i thought you like it? WHY LA LIKE THIS! BREAK UP LA! NO MORE US ANYMORE! I THOUGHT YOU SAID YOU LOVE ME FOREVER! NOW I WANNA GO CRY BANJIR! :'(



WH November 10 at 8:47pm Report
cry la u ingat saya kesah ke



ADN November 10 at 9:08pm
YALAA YOU HAVE TO CARE WHAT! IM YOUR BOYFRIEND FOREVER WHAT, :O


WH November 10 at 9:08pm Report
nope u r not


ADN November 10 at 9:09pm
YES I AM! AND I WILL STAND BY YOU FOREVER! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH DARLING, YOU SWEET HONEY PIE, I COULD JUST KISS YOU! AWW MY GRANDMA LIKES YOU ALSO U KNOW SAYANG, WE CN GET MARRIED :D


WHNovember 10 at 9:11pm Report
can u get married wit a dog nevermind
but i were never like boys ok i dont loves boys


ADN November 10 at 9:13pm
why you ask me if i cn get married with a dog? you a dog ah? dog in disguise! Its okay, i love you no matter what you are, even a dog :') okayy la, im not a boy maa, i got half dick only, so u can say im a shemale maa :)


WH November 10 at 9:14pm Report
shit u
u sick
u gila


ADN November 10 at 9:15pm
IM NO SHIT
YOU ARE THE ONE THAT IS SICK, I GO SEE UR STATUS JUST NOW! GET WELL SOON BABY :)
YALAA I CRAZYY FOR YOUU ! ;) ;) I WANNA KISS KISS U! U SO CUTE COME TO MEEE!


WH November 10 at 9:16pm Report
go die la u


ADN November 10 at 9:17pm
YALAA I TOLD YOU WHAT I DIE TONIGHT,U CANNOT WAIT TO SEE ME IN TRANSPARENT FORM AH? I KNOW I SO SEXY ONEE IN TRANSPARENT! YOU NO SEE ME, WE CAN PLAY HIDE AND SEEK WITH YOUR SEXYY LINGERIE rawrrr! roxy like a puma!


WH November 10 at 9:26pm Report
damn u


ADN November 10 at 9:26pm
okay laa to be honest, this is not danial, this is his friend. Im using his account to phrank you. he doesnt know anything about it also. Hes not this crazy to phrank you like this, im just bored now and i don't know what else to do. Just think tht it has nothing to do with danial, he is sane. And i am insane. So kay gtg sorry for the phrank dude, bye.



A friend of ADN used ADN's account fb to phrank this WH guy, pity him. haha

Went to bangsar!

So was looking for my sister's prom dress, then we passed by the little.black.book. Hehe so we went in, and and the sales person wnted me to try this dress. Which was weird coz both of them were like "you would look good in this one! ur body suits with this!" and i was like okayyyy :D so i just tried on wht they recommended and I BOUGHT IT ;)

THEN WE STOPPED BY AT *drum rolls

AND ATE TUTTI FRUTTI :D

Favourites connected

Why cant i , breathe, once again .
by liz phair, anna nalick and frankie jordan respectively.

I feel like watching old movies and listen to old soundtracks. Why am i going backwards? Not like im not appreciating what i have and where i am in now, i just feel like going back and just see what went wrong and what made me happy. And what was different compared to where i am now. Yesterday when i was listening my mp3, the song "linger - cranberries" was on. And i started crying, for what i reason? I have no idea. I think it was because of the movie, or maybe the situation i was in when the movie was still new.

: will you still love me in the morning?
;forever and ever babe.

I still remember myself using that line with somebody i love. And it never fails to remind me of how strong the love was.

Friends

I STRONGLY DISAGREE TO THIS ASH AND IMAN! hahaha

Ash and I talked about Tasha. Jeng jeng jeng...ha kutuk! Hahahaha, no lah. If we were to be one of the characters in Friends, which character would we be? So Ash said I would be Monica, since I'm a perfectionist and fussy and I can't stand dirtiness, she would be Chandler because she's the one who makes lame jokes (haha! *points finger*) and when she explains her jokes, she'd be the one who ends up laughing, not the listener (haha! Again, *points finger*), and Tasha would be Phoebe, or Joey. HAHA.

By the way, Tasha, you can ask Ash why she thinks you're like Phoebe, or Joey. Hahahaha.

maybe you guys always think tht im like phoebe or joey coz i mostly crap, but i dont think thts my real personality, imagine, would they be able to blog about these emo stuff? i dont think so -.-" Lets prove it by taking a personality test :)

and i goooooot *drum rolls, racheeeeel, okay, the thing in my mind was either rachel or ross.



oh and i got it from this website, why dont u guys try it to see if what u guys said is true :D But yeah i kinda agree that iman is monica and ash is chandler, strongly agree, but just try it. Oh yeah i wonder what atasha is, i think shes err ross maybe. Cz shes the realistic one maybe?

http://www.buddytv.com/personalityquiz/friends-personalityquiz.aspx?quiz=1000006


oh and i tried this website also, but the results cnnot post here, so no prove for this one, but i still got rachel -.-"


http://www.tbs.com/affinity/quiz/0,,6500,00.html

Fall again

Found out the truth

Now i know how you really feel. Im sorry for being here. But don't worry, i'll be gone soon.

Decision

Im confused. I really am and i feel lost, im in the middle of the road. Im not crossing, neither am i turning back. im just stuck in the middle not knowing what to do. Havent decided if i should go for the risky ride or the safe side? Bcause i don't know which one won't hurt me. Going to the risky side might break my heart if i crossed the road for no motive, left alone and stuck there not getting over the fact tht i chose the risky side and if i were to go to the safe side, i'd just cry for leaving the thing tht makes me happy.

Yesterday

I feel so empty today, maybe because you're not here. I can't believe i forced you into doing something you did not want to do. And now im the one being depressed, i can't blame you for saying yes. Im blaming myself for this. Yesterday and today is two different world. I was so happy this morning thinking about what happened, thinking about what we went through. I never felt so happy. I was never that happy. And my heart was beating so fast thinking about it. Thinking about how happy you made me eventhough i totally hated your guts. I thought i told myself to not fall in love, especially this year, Especially after all the heartbroken moments. I didn't wanna risk myself into something that would hurt so much but i can't help it. I was always so realistic but with him i wasnt.

They can take tomorrow where the plans we made,
They can take the music that we never play,
All the broken dreams take everything,
Just take it away but they can never have yesterday.

Prefect Camp & Installation of Interact Club

On friday, I had my prefect camp and my installation of intrct club, went to school with my heavy bags, :/ well after i finished school, Hanani, Joanne and Harshiah oh yeah and I went to sri garden, riding harshiah's car. I had a lot of fun in the car, even in the car. Harshiah's mother was rlly nice and cool. Definitely cool. Pn Rohaya was following us from behind with sabrina, jenny and jo ann in the car. So yeah we arrived and all, then more people arrived. Harshiah, Ashiqin, Hanani, Joanne and I were sitting at the registration table. Well i ended up only doodling at the empty paper. Coz there was only a few people coming, not like those rushing crowds. And most of them went to harshiah :( haha. But it was fun bcause i got to know a lot of new people. And most of them just approached me. Which was something i didnt mind and liked :) Had my namecards given away and all. Met Luqman, Aliff, Jasfaizi, Derrick, Anwar, well unfortunately i didnt see Eddie there. I was obsessed with the line "be that way" i started saying it without controlling myself. and i started saying it to strangers. Hee sorry. But it was rlly fun, and hitting people are so fun, thts what makes it fun :D Sorry Ysheng, Aliff and Luqman for hitting you guys. And sorry Jas coz i didnt know the handshake !

It was funny when the part where they were alrdy announcing cbn's official installation when the only people lined up were sji and sbu. We literally ran. Ran without controlling ourselves. Fiona was the first one to go on stage, and then Joann, then Cheng sim and then me. Well i still had time. but fiona rlly had to rush. haha.

Then went back to school not feeling well, Intan and Hanani made me feel better :) And then i went to the next class and Harshiah and Nicole took care of me. Thank you Intan, Harshiah, Nicole, Joanne, Hanani and Iman for taking care of me when i didnt feel well. You guys are the best, i really mean it. You guys werent mad or were making a grumpy face when i didnt wanna eat, instead you guys just tried and tried without giving up and made me feel better about myself. It's like u guys know how my mind works :) Coz thts the only method tht works haha to make me eat of course. Thank you, i love u guys <3

Well then prefect camp was awesome, i was in the NIKE group with ammelia, amelia, and some other juniors. Sorry i didnt memorize u guys's name coz i was late and u know, we didnt even sleep in the same class. But u guys were rlly good teammates and i would love to work with u guys again someday. The teamwork and the bonding was something i'll never forget. You guys were rlly great sisters.

I love the part where they were debating about whom to save. My group chose the doctor, about 4 of the groups there chose the doctor. But i cn nver imagine myself facing with tht problem. If i was tht person who had to choose, i'll kill myself. I pity the mother, the penarik beca, they were rlly unfortunate people. But to save the othrs, the only thing we cn think of is to save the person tht could save the othrs.

Im really tired. Exhausted, i slept for hours. Oh yeah now i get it, no wonder Danial calls me sleeping beauty Haha.

PACKED SCHEDULE

haha its so weird, why is tht my title now mostly in caps lock? Im so stressed out. I know today alrdy freedom day, no exam, just finished chemistry paper just now, tht was the last one. But i feel so tired. And i feel like theres more to come.

Tmrrw staying back for everybdy's day prefect performance, and thursday staying back for intrct installation practice at school, then i dont know where to throw the time for me and ash i mean ash buying her uniform and me buying my tie. I NEED TO BUY IT BFR FRIDAY COZ FRIDAY I GOT MY INSTALLATION AT SRI GARDEN! ANDD AT THE SAME DAYY I HAVE MY PREFECT CAMPING AT SCHOOL, BOTH TIME CLASHES! and its so rushing, i feel like pulling my haiirr!

After school we go straight to sri garden with harshiah's car, and then change our uniform there and then when it finishes at 6, i go straight to school and continue with the programme, and then the schedule says, sleep at 12 :( AHHHH I USUALLY SLEEP AT 10 ! im gonna be dead. I need to cope with all this. I feel like fainting. Im even tired thinking of it.

Maths

Paper 2 was easier than paper 1 , tht is for sure, paper 2 was more to sets and statistics. Oh yeah and also form 3 stuff, like circles, perimeter, area, shaded sector and all. It was okay :)

But paper 1 WASSSSSSS kindaa confusing, its like i know how to do it but i forgot how O.o And i alrdy got 8 wrong for paper 1. GREAAATT. haha. Well at least its not more than 10? Im counting on Maths to get an A. I mean it would be rlly dissapointing if i didnt get an A for math bcause i got like really high bfr :/ This time i just made a lot of careless mistakes.

Well tmrrw is sejarah, SHIIIIIT. Haha. I dont know how im gonna score tht one, bt i have to score it no matter wht, but why am i still onlining? coz i dont have the mood to study, i only have the mood to study at night , idk why.

HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHEEEEEEHIIII :D

I HAVE TO GET AT LEAST 4A's? and no fails :(

YOU CRAZY STALKAHH

HELLO MISTER, CAN U STOP BUGGING ME? I HAVE MY OWN LIFE NOW AND I WANT YOU OUT OF IT. I EVEN HAD TO CHANGE UR CALLER ID AT MY PHONEBOOK JUST TO PREVENT ME FROM VOMITTING EVERYTIME I SEE UR CALLER ID CALLING ME OR MSGING ME.

I CNNOT BE NICE TO BECAUSE U DONT UNDERSTAND ENGLISH AND MALAY, I DON'T KNOW WHY YOUR BRAIN IS SO RETARDED. JUST GET OUT OF MY LIFE! BIAR LA I DON'T WANNA ANGKAT UR CALLS OR MSG U BACK. DONT U GET IT? IM ANNOYED BY YOU AND I DON'T WANNA BE FRIENDS WITH U AND I DONT CARE IF U WANNA TALK TO ME COZ I DON'T WANNA TALK TO U AND THERES NOTHING YOU CN DO ABOUT IT. AHHHHH!

GET A LIFEEEEEE

OPEN HOUSE

Did a small open house, just for a few close friends and family. Thank you Iman, Dian, Atasha, Harshiah, Sonia, Aina and Nahra for coming :) I really appreciate it! It was damn fun, i know and I know sonia wants to come over again :P haha. We had a lot of fun. Sonia, Iman and Nahra dared me to be PROPER, I dont think tht will ever come true, i was proper for not even more than 2 seconds :P So here it is, me, proper? Iman laughed like hell, coz it was impossible for me to be proper! EVER.

Then Dian arrived, and then Harshiah, Damnnn funny weh, we made a video -.-" haha ! im not gonna upload it, ever :P hahahaha.

I had fun with my girls :') Theyre the best! This is why im gonna miss high school :)

I also had fun with atasha and aina, we were hehe storying abt things hihi, girl talk kan u guys? ;)

Choosy

TO MY BELOVED COUSIN FAROQ AZHAR,

i am not choosy! and why pity my children if they wanna get married? coz im too choosy? nolaa, :P For them im not choosy, for myself maybe A LITTLE BIT ONLY, but tht still counts as not choosy.
hahaha i know when ur bored, u'll open my blog, and read this. Hehe.
Im single coz i want to be single ! :)
What la you bugger -.-"

i know la u'll just date whoever tht is pretty, its coz you're a stalkahh! you even took a picture of a girl you think is hot, at SPAIN, when ur supposed to be playing FOOTBALL or getting your head focusing on FOOTBALL.

but, so, anyways, i wanna take this opportunity to wish you goodluck in pmr, dont dissapoint makjang and the rest of ur family, don't be like me. I know you're smarter than i am. You're just freaking lazy, and please come to my house tmrrw, i beg u! Haha, i'll give u the calculator, :D I know you cn get good results. Do well in this exam, this is not upsr, this is the exam tht will determine your stream, and i know you, for sure wanna be in science stream, so study hard and achieve good results. We're all here supporting you ! I think its like 2 more weeks? Doa bnyk2 kt Allah, baca doa before you start the exam, selawat 7 kali or baca bismillah 7 kali, and then eat lots of raisins or kurma! Tidur awal, study 2 hours everyday, the least. Good luck brothaa :')

Message received

In this post, there are gonna be some missing words. But it's for me to understand only, and if you do then great, if u dont, i'll leave it as a mystery.

I never knew it was supposed to be this way, of all the previous i thought it was all about hoping for . I just thought having faith in something that i hoped would actually help me get it. I guess not. It wasn't about receiving it, it was about the reason or the change or the impact that would shake you. Maybe something that wouldn't come to me bcause it was all just a :) I always hoped and hoped and hoped, yes it was great to feel like something about it. But it'll only build dissapointments.
Nobody ever knows how life works, nobody ever knows if something is not worth it or is worth it. Some first perspective would say that this is bcause you have to arrange this and that, and you have to get your emotions just right. And not go mad, not go angry, not go sad, not go too happy about it. But nobody can ever control it. They say that maybe the things that you do now changes your life. Yes it does, i agree, but whatever it is. We can never know what changes it, how the changes are, what the effects are to someone. Or how much happiness it brings, sadness, or dissapointments.
So im saying, whatever we do, whatever you do, whatever i do. We can never know how it change us, change our future, change our life, or change our surroundings. So why do you have to be so composed about it?

Interact Leadership Training Seminar

I had tons of fun at Wesley Methodist School, for the leadership training programme, got to meet new people from SAB, Cempaka, Sji, Stella Maris, Wesley, and etc :) They were really friendly and very open. Well at one time, we were grouped into groups 1,2,3,4 as the ice breaking between the interactors and the rotaractors. My group was fun! They just randomly pick people from all over the school to just join any groups, tht way we cn get to know people from other schools. Haha we had to introduce ourselves and then we played this game, we had to continue stories. A person starts this anything random, and i think this guy i forgot his name haha srry started with "once there was a girl" and then at some part i got lost and then it came back to me at "then the two girls stopped the teacher" and i had to continue, i was so blur haha so i just said "but the teacher pushed them aggressively" HAHA, the rotaractor was laughing bcause the teacher went aggressive :P and then i think hanani wanted to say tht the teacher canned them :P i forgot what she said. And there was this story about a superhero, haha, they said the superhero had powers and then i said he could shape shift himself :P Another story was tht this guy was on a date with the girl then the girl bfr bfr me, i think her name was elina from cempaka, she said "then the guy farted" and the girl bfr me which is syakira from cempaka said "and he burped", I WONDER WHAT I'LL DO IF I WAS THE GIRL, hahaha, so as my turn came i said "and the girl ran away" HAHAHAHAH, obviously! And then hanani said "and he ran after the girl" haha then the rotaractor was expecting some hindustan moves HAHAH coz the guy was running after the girl right but naah i think some girls and guys ended the story alrdy, so tk sempat for hindustan movie otw :P haha.


So anyways after lunch break . we were separated from our own club members :'(
One class for all the presidents, vice presidents and the funding director bcause their roles just relates.
Another class for the Secretary.
Another class for the Treasurer.
Another class for the International Understanding Director
Another class for the Community Service DIrector (here where i came in :O)
Another class for the Club Service Directors, Publicity Directors, Sergeant At Arms, and any additional posts, all of them went here.

Well, so everyone went to their classes, i met with new people such as, Victoria and Caiven from SAB, Mun Keat and Samantha from Wesley, and etc i forgot their names from Cempaka, Stella Maris, Sri Garden, and i forgot the other school, haha, but I alrdy know Amin from Sji so i sat with him. Coz i was only used to him, aahh i was so nervous at first, and scared of course, coz i barely know anyone there, but the rotarian tht was in charge for our class was a nice person, he lectured us based on truth, based on facts of life, not based on moduls tht were printed on the leadership training seminar book. There can never be service above self if we didnt have a self, tht just went straight up into my mind and i was just thinking about the phrase over and over again. And it was true, if u dont contribute anything to yourself, how can you contribute to the others? If you don't have tht benefit to urself, or the advantages, or the achievements for ur own self, how cn u help the community?
But the best community is to yourself.
The thing tht i could find equally is that, when you serve others, you serve yourself.
The morals of doing it, the experiences of doing it, the happiness, the satisfaction that they feel will just go round back to you. And that's what you're gonna feel when you know you made a group of people happy, people in needy, needs of love and care, or clothes, books, foods, things that we have but they don't.
And talking about us serving the community, the least we could do as a student or the best thing we could do other than to study hard and achieve good grades as a student is to contribute to our school.
I can't believe i have everything what the guy said in my mind, like it's programmed in my head, for the first time something went into my head without going back out.
Well this Muhammad Amin who sat beside me kept yawning, and i think he poked my arm or something, and made noise from the badges tht were in the plastic. AIYOO sempat lagy main phone -.-" AMIN AMIN, hish hahah bising ! Then we had a group discussion on whom we wanna contribute to? What type of fund raising to help reach our budget or the donations we plan to do? Or what we wanna donate to them, or how we can help them? And how we're gonna get there?
We decided to contribute to the orphanages. Like food, clothes, books, items that we don't need anymore, and to raise money for them is by doing a mini concert, where we cn get representatives from each school or clubs or something to perform. We can raise money for them and at the same time spread the message about the needy kids, about why we wanna raise money or maybe to create awareness among the community of the situation in this world now.
And they talked about renting a bus, well, i told them if we wanna rent a bus, the budget would be around 300 - 400 ringgit. Which was kinda expensive coz it involves a lot of people.
So then we decided, it's best to take our own transport or public transport :)

And then lalalala went into the hall, contiue on the ICC meeting for the presidents, vice and secretary.
I WOULD LIKE TO CONGRATS MY DEAREST MATE, PRESIDENT OF THE CBN INTRCT CLUB AND MY GOSSIP MATE,

CONGRATULATIONS ON BEING THE CHAIR PERSON FOR ICC MEETING :')

We are very proud of you as you got the highest post, and the vice chair person is britney from Sri Garden i think, and so on .


I JUST WANNA SAY, WE HAD SO MUCH FUN :D IM SO GLAD I HAD MY FRIENDS THERE AND OTHER NEW FRIENDS OF COURSE :D