Procrastination

Idk if I wanna update my blog abt my destress moment with ashIqin :p I think I will bt myb tmrrw. For noooow, I just wanna say tht I'm dying cz spm is near. Haha k tht doesn't make sense. Aaand my eldest sister is going to America this dec, maybe with my dad, maybe not. She's furthering her studies there. Hurrah! I get the room all to myself! This calls for a complete makeover, (after she's gone). I know it'll be a lil bit lonely. Bcause I fight with her often, and she cn be bitchy all the time. Bt she's my sister. And I guess I'm gnna miss her. But there's always Skype, so i dnt think I'll miss her tht much hahaha u know this is my ego talking. I'm so jealous of her, nt bcause she gets to further her studies there. But bcause she culd explore the culinary wonders there. I mean most of the food company is based there. Factories. Restaurants with all kinds of varieties. Just thinking tht she culd just walk arnd and bump into foods tht were never in Malaysia. Or maybe even divers scallops, just kills me :( anywaaaays, my dad told me tht right after my spm ends. He's gonna send me to driving school! I'm not so excited abt tht, I mean I was bfr but thinking abt my personality, the paranoid me, the blur me, the not so alert me, the forgetful me, i don't know how I'm gnna survive on the road. It's just so scary, people honking all they want, the noise, the pollution, the possibilities of me getting accidents, injured, and for the fact tht I hate speed! I think I'll just drive like a snail. I think. My moms even more scared to face this fact cz she knows how blur I am. Hahaha. And my dad is sending me somewhere to train me for tennis. But tht doesn't stop me from wanting to go to the gym! He said I culd only choose one. I like the thrill of tennis, I like the motive of gym too. I need to do both. I just need to. Idk if I wnt to find a part time job whie waiting for my spm results. I mean I culd use some cash. Oh yes annd ashiqin and I decided to go to prom. Why? Bcause we thot there will be good food and it's our last time to meet the people we love, like and dislike. Hahaha I'm kidding nt dislike, we do not dislike anybody, we just dislike their personality smtimes. But I mean we culd be bitchy and all wrong too sometimes. We're definitely human :) and I'm still figuring wht I wanna be after spm, I'm torn between hearts and brains decision. My dad wants to send me to uitm to do mathematics so tht later on I culd further my studies overseas and maybe pursue more deeper in tht field and teach, educate other people. I find it fun to teach and it rlly means something to me when someone is able to push themselves higher. Buut I also wnt to take actuarial science, seen the forums, heard from experience, they all say I'm gnna back out half way doing it. They say it's even harder than medicine, but I'm still considering it :) and Im going to tke cullinary, just nt now, maybe after a traditional course I'm going to take. My passion is still there and I'm nt going to neglect it. Tho, I'm also considering performing arts secretly. I hv a thing for theaters. Eventho I sleep in some of it buut tht was bcause I was sleepy and it was boring. Haha I like acting, found an interest in acting in the process of our interclass drama competition. I was the crazy kid who.... U dnt need to know more abt tht, let's just keep it as a memory shall we ? :p and I love to sing , I mean I sing all the time. In my shower.... When I cook, when I study, when I sleep (In my dreams!), found this interest when I entered Cbn idol when I was 12 :p wasn't very good at it bcause I dint knw how to use the microphone -.-" anyways, I look at other people and they look like theyve figured everything out. Tho, I'm nt pressured yet bcause I knw I gotta think abt spm first. I still need to fix on my bio, sej and agama. It's so difficult.