What's left

Nways, On saturday, I went back to Johor for my aunt's engagement day! There was good food, good company, met with my cousins! I was the photographer for the day but of course I wasn't really good at it, so the pictures were very average :) But it did capture a lot of good memories. And i guess thts wht matters! OH yeaaah and i got another brdy present! From my aunt. When she was doing her make up, i came in the room bcause my sister called me and suddenly she asked me to wait in the room. My aunt suddenly tried to reach this small box from her bag, and it was and orange and black box! I didnt know wht it was, I was too excited. And i saw the wording "KENJI" on top of it, and i dont know wht tht is, HAHAHA. Oh well, so i opened it and inside the box was a pair of earrings. A purple diamond thts wrapped inside a platinum something white gold, idk wht jewelry language she was talking about. Hahaha. I was just tripping when I saw it! So I wore it for the day :D Thank you ucu!

Okay so I havent updated my blog in ages. School has been so hectic, my weekends have been hectic. My migraine is back, my pimples are too. Im too busy to care abt how I look like these past few days. Except for when i went to my aunt's engagement, did a hairdo, and before tht went for mani and pedis! Gonna bring my friends there after spm, insyaAllah if we're are still in malaysia! I hope all of us are, :) Not forever tho, i know. Just maybe until next year march or something :P

Tomorrow is my last paper, physics paper 3. I hope i'll score it, bcause paper 1 was pretty much confusing. paper 2 was more to what you can observe from the diagrams given which was pretty simple, alhamdulillah. And im so grateful for hving my caring friends around me. Receiving tons of study notes from Iqbal and Hanis from MCKK and Seri Puteri, Cyberjaya. Thank you for using u guys's money for pos laju! :P

On friday last week, Hanis came to my house. My primaryyyy class captain, and she was the top student :P ECEH. ahaha. Fighting for the spot with Farina ay ay ? :P Missed hving her around! Gain a lot of things when she came here. She shared informations about her career talk there abt the JPA scholarship, MARA, matriculation, PNB, and etc. Didnt know abt most of the infos and now i know :) Alhamdulillah, god bless you Hanis for sharing with me all the information you know. Hope you're gonna be a good neurosurgeon at Ireland someday :) And I know tht yr very determined to make it happen, you're the most humble person i know. And I think thts wht makes you different :) But don't bring yourself down too low because i believe in you and i know you can achieve great things in life, look where you are now :) Thank you for the BOOKS AND NOTES! how can u give me everything thts too precious? And I still cant believe u asked ur teacher to post exam papers to me. Haiyer. And for wnting to recommend me to Bursa Saham! Its okay if it doesnt works out, you're still my friend :) I'll tell my dad's cousin whos a neurosurgeon abt u too! The 3rd best neurosurgeon in the world, something im rlly proud of :') Okay didnt mean to brag, hehe

Okayyy, so Im pretty much determined to have a stress free day after trials. Just one dayy, one outing, some good tea, good food, good company, good laugh, and then im gonna struggle really really hard for my studies. Just one month left. October. I really hope im gonna do well for my exams. I have to really plant this determination in myself. So tht i wont easily give up. This is my last chance to show people what im capable of, to show them tht i can make my parents proud too. To show them tht im not some lazy person not hving any directions in life. I think I have struggled enugh, with confidence. I have never believed in myself. Which caused me to have this disorder that I never wanted. I want to fight this thing. I need to. i need to believe in myself, again. No matter what.