MASKS

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
ASHIQIN IS KILLING ME now aahhhhh
hhhahaha WE LOOK HOT, DONT WE? hahaha
im the left one, yes and ashiqin is the one on the right side :P
WHAT A BEAUTIFUL CHOCOLATE LADY! - white chicks

Sleepovah suck on tht ! -.-"

fried mars bars! :D yumm!

THESE ARE THE BURGERS WE MADE! :D

MY TWO MONKEY BUDDIES PLAYING BUBBLES! Me less than three you Iman & Ash :)

MEET TOOTHLESS!

And these are my bestfriends, simple as tht :)

Now, i dont know wht to update, and what to say but i love the sleepover and i sound like a douche.
I dont know why and i dont know wht, i dont know why i said i dont know why and i dont know what.
Ashiqin is reading this. So i have to crab, nowwww. Let me show u something, wait *uploading pictures

edtgftctdsgdtrferefrdfrwfdsdjsadbjabdflsa- hihihi this is not ashiqin

well i just edited it but aftr this la haha,
i love sleeping over at ashiqin's place, its funn! and we even made our own burgers, i know u might think "so its just a burger, i cn cook othr cmplicated things" bt its not about doing whts simple and whts not, its about doing it with ur bestfriends, or in my way, looking at ur friends doing it :P haha.
I had a fun time. I mean spending time with Ashiqin and Iman is like something tht i'll never get to describe. It's just this happy feeling in myself. I mean of course la, thyre my bestfriends, why wouldnt i feel happy when im hanging out with them? they're the greatest friends i'll ever have. And im probably gonna grow old with them & not with a husband :P

We played bubbles, and we just sat outside and enjoyed the fresh air. The bubbles were big and small, and we popped it , one by one HAHAHAAHAH, tht was random -.-"

we also fried mars bars! it was delicious! u have to try it trust me,
Its one cup of all purpose flour, then mix it with one cup of milk, then mix it with one egg, and one teaspoon of oil, TADAAAAA, then u just dip the mars bars into it and fry it! :D

Anyways, what else did we do? Oh yeah we watched white chicks,
UR MOMMA SO whatever joke tht was, and I NEED PROFESSIONAL HELP, DR.PHIL, OPRAH! anddd maybe even HOLD MY POODLE YAA HOLD IT YAA, YOU WANT SOME A THIS! HAA U WANT SOME OF THIS! I'LL TAKE BOTH OF U! hahahahaha. It was freaking funny and we watched tht while eating some snacksyypoodle, HAHA.
It was fun to hang out with my girls :)

OHYEAAHHH, and then iman had to go back :( it was a very sad moment, we cried in front of the door, and the door said dont cry so we didnt.
hahahahah, the door was wise :')
So then we went upstairs, and planned othr things, such as doing parodys! and SHOWERDYS,
crazy i know and we watched mean girls, while hving our hot CHOCOLATE WITH MARSHMALLOWWWWSSS, SALOOOWSS, BAD ASS MC! hahahaa swear it was funnyy,
"I HAVE A BIG FAT LESBIAN CRUSH ON YOU! SUCK ON THAT!" one of the lines in mean girls, haahaha i havent watched mean girls for ageeess, and watching it brings back memories.
Haha it was just so funn and comfyy and lalalalal in lala land.
I crap a lot tonight, i'll probably drool when i sleep and think of saw's face choking my ass. Although, is there such thing as choking and ass in a sentence? i guess not, ashiqin's theory predicted tht i would fart non stop when tht happens. so i guess thts not happening, know why saw suddenly came up? coz we watched it a few minutes ago! IT WAS SCARY ASH PEED BESIDE ME Hhahhahahahaha OKOK tht was a joke, she didnt, but we both did pee when we went upstairs, oh and did i tell u tht i had to let ashiqin go up the stairs first bcause she was scared hahaha, she covered her face most of the time we were watching the saw movie. haha great job ash, it was rllllly scary, wasnt it?
NOW, LETS TALK BUSINESS, i look like dark knight.
WARNING: DONT WATCH THIS UNLESS U WNT TO SLEEP TONIGHT,

We wore masks, not masks as in those plastic ones, we wore facial masks, from MONTAGNE JEUNESSE! ash tried the chocolate and mine was the white chocolate, damn mine was veryyyyy strong, i mean the smell, when i took pictures of myself, i saw dark knight at my own reflection, i'll show u aftr this, maybe, i'll think about it.
oh yeah and did i tell u we also watched mamma mia!
Ashiqin is the short old ladyy who wants to be the lone wolf *au au au au
I am meryl streep, bcause im emo and i like to cry hahahahaha kidding, and im gonna marry a guy named sam carmicheal, and
iman is the tallest old lady, who does botox and uses donkey testicles, good job iman (Y) and young guys wnt her, u know the nigga with the curly hair? yeah thts the one hahahahhahaa.

THE END THANK YOU! and yes this is me, im wearing the statue of liberty's crown and wore facial masks, the lady has turned white!
GOODBYE!

BE MEAN TO ME

a girl wants a guy who loves her, but gives her space

comforts her, but is mean to her sometimes.

-cougar town (rephrased by ashiqin)

True statement

sometimes I imagine you as that old single lady

or the one yang ramai anak

it's either one - noor ashiqin

I completely agree with this, and i think im gonna end up being the first one haha

Inspirational songs

Insha Allah - Maher Zain :)

Marshanda - Ketulusan Hati

Sherina - Jalan Cinta

One in a million (2)

Haha i salute the girl! It's not easy to just fall for someone, anddd she has the guts to prove it. Hahaha. But i think this music video is cute, i mean love the choreography. It's so adorable, :)

31st Education & Further Studies Fair
Mid Valley Exhibition Centre,
18-19 Dec 2010 (Sat & Sun)
11 - 6PM
Admission is free

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Venue : hall 1,2 & atrium :)

Worries

I've been doing a lot of research about actuarial science. I don't know why, but there's something about it tht just pulls me in. And i just know how much of an analytical person i am to actually match myself with this career.

To consider being an actuary, one must have the following qualities:

• An outstanding student in mathematics.
• Love to do research and to learn and solve complicated problems.
• Love strategic games like chess and computer games.
• Love to write and communicate with other people.

• Interested in history, social, legal and political issues.

• Self motivated and good leadership qualities..

got it from a website about the introduction of actuarial science. well, i dont know if im outstanding in mathematics. But i do love it and i know its my passion. And i love doing researches, and haha cmplicated problems, im always there. Well i kinda think chess is boring but its fun when u get to take the soldier and make voices with it and kiill the queen or king by jumping on it ahhaaha sorry. Computer games, of course, like shockwave. cooking games HAHAHAH im seriously joking with myself but i do love computer games. Any type of computer games. I love to write, why do u think im blogging now? Communication skills are very important in this course, so i would consider myself being an average person with communication skills.

I dislike history hahaha, but im a little bit interested in political issues, especially when u get to debate on it.

I am self motivated but i dont know abt the leadership qualities. Im gonna do more research on actuarial science. As i would like to find out on which i can actually major in.

Is it financial security, insurance or investment management or maybe more to fund management. we will see :)

I cannot wait to actually get myself involved with this challenging subject as ive heard tht a lot of people saying tht this subject is difficult. But i'll take tht as a challenge. I will see and analyse more on this. Not guaranteed it will be my final choice but i do know this would be at the top of my list.

Ages

I can't believe i even survived in holding on to a friendship. Yesterday was one difficult day i have ever had. I haven't had a breakdown for ages. I haven't cry the way i cried yesterday for ages. Ages ages ages. Everything it's all ages. Bfr i start talking abt anything more detailed.

I really wanna thank Danial. Danial, if ur reading this, haha u know its u and not some othr danial. Thank you so much for listening. Thank you so much for being there for me. I know i cn always count on you. Im sorry you had to waste ur time listening to me cry and ur credit of course. Thank you for the comfort. I felt really comfortable crying to you. I know tht i have to at least feel embarassed tht i cried to you. I do, i am but thts just bcause im embarassed tht a 16 year old like me could cry tht way. I think this is where my problem is, i guess i thought tht i could always be so composed. So secure. So uptight and controlled. I forgot that you can cry and get hurt and just get frustrated about anything at whatever age u are. I am so ego. I had too much anger in myself but you understood me right away. You have done a lot for me. I can never count those things. You're such a good person to me. Really u are. Remember that day when we were on the phone and that we were talking about friendship? I told you that I would do anything to not lose this friendship. That this friendship was important to me. This friendship is precious. Im not really good in expressing myself, i suck in this im sorry but i just want to tell you that i am so thankful to god that i have a person like you in my life. I am so thankful to have such a caring friend. And that I would never want to lose you. And i want you to always remember that, I love you. As a brother and a bestfriend to me. Thank you Danial, you're the best.



And im so glad i had a very open minded session with my bestfriends Ashiqin and Iman. They are both so important to me. Ashiqin could sometimes be like my elder sister and also my younger sister. And iman, she's definitely like a little sister to me. I mean i dont see this friendship just as the roles of bestfriend. You guys are my family. I want to go through things with both of you. A part of me is so glad we had tht fight, and a part of me is just grateful we went stronger and much closer aftr the discussion yesterday. I definitely want this friendship to work out. I really do. You both are like the top of my loved ones list. And i know tht what i said is so corny and so blerghh common, like "alaa any girls cn say tht to their bestfriends and u know tulis, like kacang goreng only" but when i say that, i really mean it. I really really do mean it.
I can see myself laughing with you guys until we are all wrinkled, I can see myself getting angry at you guys if u guys are too noisy or u know (jokey) HAHA , I cn see myself crying in both of u guys's arms. I can see myself turning to both of you when i have a hard time. I cn see myself waking up in a hospital seeing u both holding my hands. But in a way i cn also see myself seeing u guys doing a chicken dance when im terribly angry -.-" HAHAH. I can see my kid being the eldest among u guys punya children :P Thats wht u guys predicted kan! ahha. And i cn see my kid pulling Ashiqin's hair and messing up Iman's baking. HAHA, i cn see Iman's kid annoy mine and ashiqin's kid. I cn see my kid having tantrums and just being random about things or maybe even hit them (ashiqin and iman's kids) head with a calculator. I can see ashiqin's kid being the boss and being the leader in causing trouble and invite mine and iman's kid too. hahahaha, i cn see us moms or workers or wives being exhausted and having our one of those "time for a bestfriend's meeting up session" complaining about our kids, work, and husband. HAHA.
Ashiqin with the laptop in her hand and trying to finish assignments. Or trying to finish her articles or masterpiece in journalism :P
Iman with a labcoat in her bag, or with her documents and files and results about tests or experiments. And making her boooooring i dont care science theories HAHA. yes iman i know ur too smart :P haha.
And me with my calculator as a keychain, or a handy one in my handbag, and with my stationerys. Counting the statistics and going all economy as im going for actuarial science. haha.
Let's be those people. Let's still stick together in the future and have more fights and happy moments.
AND WHY LA I LOOK LIKE A WORKING MOM? when u guys think of me, always think of me hving kids, i have no idea why -.-" HAHAHA. Iman & Ash remember about the combined egg yolk thing? HAHA sakit tooooot. HAHAHA. I love u guys :')


I LOVE U GUYS LIKE HELL I CN DIE, I HOPE IMAN CN COME TO ASHIQIN'S HOUSE NEXT WEEK SO THT WE CN MOLEST ASHIQIN'S TEDDAYHH TOGEZHAHH! :D



Oh and not forgetting my other bestfriends, Nahra Yasmin & Atasha Liu, u both are also very special to me. Trust me. I love you guys sooo much i cant even describe it. You both are always there for me :)


Nahra thank you for asking me this question every 5 minutes, which is "ezleen, are you okay?" or "u have any stories?!" You were always so excited to hear about anything tht goes on with my life. And everytime i have my grumpy face on, ur always there to just pat my back and tell me tht its okayy or ur always there to just listen to me even when ur busy. Even when ur packed. even when ur mad. Ur alwys ready to comfort me. Now that's what i call bestfriend. I miss you alrdy :( And and im so glad you consider me as ur bestfriend. I thought u dint but remember at this one point u just turned to me and said "u know ezleen, i never had a bestfriend like u. Ur so different. and im so glad u are one" I was very touched and flattered and i just think tht i can never deserve tht coz im not much of a good bestfriend. And im sorry if you're mad tht i try to fix every of ur problems everytime u had one. Im just the type of person where i have to do something abt tht something tht bugs my loved ones. Especially you, coz you're my bestest friend and eventho we only started being close this year but always remember that you're someone i never want to lose. Bcause you cn make me happy just by hitting me. I dont like people hitting me but i dont know why i dont mind u hitting me. hahaha, and thank you for always trying to annoy me, it rlly cheered me up :') One more thing, thank you for telling me all the things abt ur life. It rlly makes me feel useful and it makes me feel like you cn actually trust me. Nahra you're just such a nice person, and ur so smart, i especially adore ur theories about life and the connections we have in this world. I cannot believe how understanding you are about life, about challenges about obstacles about emotions. Those are rlly complex things and you are one einstein to have such good thoughts about them. AND YOU ARE SO SMART I HATE U SO MUCH


And to atasha, you EXOTIC FACE PERSON, i am so jealouuss tht u ahh macha so cntik HAHA. But thts not the thing tht builds our friendship. I feel so open with you, i can tell you anything at anytime. You're just someone whos rlly strong and has been through a lot of things. And i adore you, i look up to you. Your strength and your preseverance just fascinates me. And you're always giving me the chance to learn about it. You're such a good listener and you're always there for me. You never like go all tantrum with me. even if u did, i wnt u to know tht im still here for you. Even if u offend me or even if u go all tantrum or pms or anything, i'll never go away and i'll always stand by you bcause you're my bestfriend. And i know tht i have a lot of bestfriends, but dont ever think tht i would rank you. Bcause no matter how many bestfriends i have in my life, you would be one of the most important ones. And you can count on me for cheering up or for the service of just listening. Maybe i might not be as strong and as smart as you about things or environment or about the engines in life. But I will always try my best to make you feel like im always here for you. You have taught me a lot of things. You have been my mentor in a lot of things. You're one of those special girls tht i cn laugh with about anything. And you never mind if i make any stupid jokes. haha. Although i know sometimes u cn get annoyed , im sorry :P But i wnt u to know atasha, tht i love you so much and you're already like a sister to me. Always remember tht.

AND TO NICOLE AND HARSHIAH, YOU BOTH ARE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME EVENTHOUGH SOMETIMES YOU CN DENY MY THEORIES AND I AM ALWYS ANNOYED WITH U GUYS'S THEORIES BUT I LOVE YOU BOTH still :) always will. You both are such good people and such good friends. And when im down, you guys are always trying to cheer me up, :)


and thank you also to denise choo for always being concern and always being so funnyy, :) You always cheer me up even when im annoyed. HAHAHHA. and sorry iman and I always whack u :P

Better

Im glad D is back with his girl :) Im glad i could help. You're my bestfriend.

Im sorry F, for assuming a lot of things. Im sorry. I know you were in a hard time but im just dissapointed tht u didnt turn to me. Bcause u know my nature, i feel better if someone actually depends on me to make things better.

I, we're preparing for an intervention. Yes A?

De & Na, im gonna get u both when school starts. You guys fooled me! hhaha but im glad u both are okay again :) makes me feel better tht i suceed in doing tht :P HAHAHAHA.


Alhamdulillah :)

Fixing & Losing

Talking about fixing things. I have this habit of listening to people's problems, and finding out the cause and trying to fix it. And trying to make everything better. So tht it would turn out well. And tht there's no misunderstanding and clashes. Especially for the people tht i care about. It makes me feel better to see the people i love and care about be happy. That's how i earn my happiness.

Bcause it actually makes me feel like i've done something in this world. And i feel like im contributing something to the people i love.

And i would always feel bad if it didnt work out. Bcause i feel like i've failed in doing something that i love. I failed making the people i care abt happy.

Yesterday was a day full with lessons.

I learnt about change. I learnt about losing someone. I learnt about making stupid desicions. I learnt about being ignorant. I learnt about helping people you love. I learnt about lending a shoulder for someone to cry on. I learnt about panic-ing. I learnt about losing the person you used to care about so much.

Yesterday i found out that my bestfriend is gone. The person tht i turned to everytime there was something wrong in my life. The person that was there to hear my thoughts, the person tht was there to help me stand up when i fell. The person tht would come to me everytime he needed someone to talk to. The person that could understand my jokes. The person that could calm me down. The person that would just make me laugh everytime i was grumpy. The person tht i backed up. The person tht was supporting me throughout the friendship. I can't believe tht person is gone. I don't know who he is anymore. And i feel like the person's dead.

And i feel so useless, bcause i cannot help D. I cannot help him getting the girl he loves. I cannot make him realise that he is more worthy than that. I cannot help him see the wider view of it. I cannot help him heal himself. I cannot block those bullets for him. And tht i cannot do anything when he tries to hurt himself. I feel so useless bcause my capability of helping him has a limit. I care about him so much. He's my bestfriend and all i can do is talk to him about it and make him feel better.

One in a million

I miss this song! it's been ages since i've actually listen to it.

I've been listening to this song over and over again. I miss it. One in a million ayy. These days, i've been really speechless about things. I don't know how to describe my feelings. I don't know how to say it. I don't know how to say things i actually feel or wnt or need. There was this time when i just had this greatest friend, we shared stories and we would turn to each other everytime we had any problems. Oh and how happy i was when i had tht friend. Im nt saying that im not friends with him anymore. I still do have him as a friend, but he's so different now. I wish i could have the old him but he's so happy to be the new him.
I wish i could just rewind everything bcause he's such a good bestfriend to me.
And i've lost another one, i feel like my statements are all wrong with him.
Why are things so different now? I've always supported you, especially when she's done something wrong. But why now, when im making my own desicion about things, you're going against it instead of supporting me?

And you, a selfish person. A childish person who thinks that you, yourself is mature. I am tired of you.

Oh great, im so bored this holiday. I don't know what to do. If im always online, my dad will be angry at me. But it's the holidays! And i just finished my finals and and this is holiday! school just ended, GIVE ME A BREAK!

A cruel phrank

subject: Hi baby :)
Between WH and ADN


ADN November 10 at 7:59pm
how are you? U added me ah apek, i think you're so hot! WOOSH! i need water :O


WH November 10 at 8:02pm Report
hahaha fine


ADN November 10 at 8:03pm
THE ONLY THING YOU CAN SAY IS FINE AH?! THERES NO "AWW U SO HOT TOO, I WANNA DIE!" :( Can i have ur number ?


WH November 10 at 8:04pm Report
i want my number u ask Ezleen Natasha


ADN November 10 at 8:07pm
you already have your own number, why you do you want your own number? OH WHY EZLEEN NATASHA? ARE YOU FRIENDS WITH HER OR SOMETHING? HOW COME SHE GOT YOUR NUMBER? SHE DOESN'T EVEN GIVE ME HER NUMBER. CAN I HAVE HERS?


WH November 10 at 8:09pm Report
ahhhhhhh
u need to ask her
becoz i ask her for number becoz my frenz known her so i take
if u an her number go ask her dont ask me
and i wit Ezleen natasha is just frenz nothing more

ADN November 10 at 8:13pm
WHY LA APEK! JUST GIVE ME HER NUMBER LA AND OH FINE, IF U DONT GIVE HER NUMBER, GIVE ME URS NOWW!
ahaha yalaa, i didn't say you and her got something whaat :P
YOU AHH SO HOTSTUFF WANN ! woosh!



WH November 10 at 8:14pm Report
as her first or not she dont fren me anymore


ADN November 10 at 8:17pm
THEN GIVE ME YOUR NUMBER NOW LA! eyyy wait, ur friends know her ahh? which friends? i wanna know also! why u care what she thinks so much, let her not be friends with you la!


WHNovember 10 at 8:29pm Report
hahaha u so bad i'm not giving u my number and her number


ADN November 10 at 8:29pm
WEYH BABY, WHY YOU TAK REPLY ME? I MISS YOU ALREADY BABY. YOU KNOW I TUMBUH JANGGUT WAITING FOR YOUR MESSAGE.
I'LL WAIT ALL ETERNITY FOR YOU ♥


WH November 10 at 8:30pm Report
mampus kau tunggu je sampai mati


ADN November 10 at 8:32pm
aku mati sekarang je la. kau pergi kat kubur aku panggil nama kau sekarang. see you baby, bring me cupcakes also ♥


WH November 10 at 8:33pm Report
mampus i'm not going


ADN November 10 at 8:34pm
oh play hard to get la now? I'll your balcony, wait for me you know tonight. See you baby ♥


WH November 10 at 8:38pm Report
not waiting for u


ADN November 10 at 8:39pm
THEN I STALK YOU LA, DON'T WAIT FOR ME ONE, I GO CATCH YOU MYSELF!


WH November 10 at 8:39pm Report
come la if u dare


ADN November 10 at 8:43pm
HEHE YOU NO SEE ME ONE! I TRANSPARENT ALRDY YOU KNOW I TOLD YOU I DIE TONIGHT WHAT , YOU NO SEE ME AT KUBUR, I SEE YOU AT HOME! TADAAA baby, wear lingerie okay ;)


WH November 10 at 8:45pm Report
kau ni org gila ke apa


ADN November 10 at 8:47pm
i thought you like it? WHY LA LIKE THIS! BREAK UP LA! NO MORE US ANYMORE! I THOUGHT YOU SAID YOU LOVE ME FOREVER! NOW I WANNA GO CRY BANJIR! :'(



WH November 10 at 8:47pm Report
cry la u ingat saya kesah ke



ADN November 10 at 9:08pm
YALAA YOU HAVE TO CARE WHAT! IM YOUR BOYFRIEND FOREVER WHAT, :O


WH November 10 at 9:08pm Report
nope u r not


ADN November 10 at 9:09pm
YES I AM! AND I WILL STAND BY YOU FOREVER! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH DARLING, YOU SWEET HONEY PIE, I COULD JUST KISS YOU! AWW MY GRANDMA LIKES YOU ALSO U KNOW SAYANG, WE CN GET MARRIED :D


WHNovember 10 at 9:11pm Report
can u get married wit a dog nevermind
but i were never like boys ok i dont loves boys


ADN November 10 at 9:13pm
why you ask me if i cn get married with a dog? you a dog ah? dog in disguise! Its okay, i love you no matter what you are, even a dog :') okayy la, im not a boy maa, i got half dick only, so u can say im a shemale maa :)


WH November 10 at 9:14pm Report
shit u
u sick
u gila


ADN November 10 at 9:15pm
IM NO SHIT
YOU ARE THE ONE THAT IS SICK, I GO SEE UR STATUS JUST NOW! GET WELL SOON BABY :)
YALAA I CRAZYY FOR YOUU ! ;) ;) I WANNA KISS KISS U! U SO CUTE COME TO MEEE!


WH November 10 at 9:16pm Report
go die la u


ADN November 10 at 9:17pm
YALAA I TOLD YOU WHAT I DIE TONIGHT,U CANNOT WAIT TO SEE ME IN TRANSPARENT FORM AH? I KNOW I SO SEXY ONEE IN TRANSPARENT! YOU NO SEE ME, WE CAN PLAY HIDE AND SEEK WITH YOUR SEXYY LINGERIE rawrrr! roxy like a puma!


WH November 10 at 9:26pm Report
damn u


ADN November 10 at 9:26pm
okay laa to be honest, this is not danial, this is his friend. Im using his account to phrank you. he doesnt know anything about it also. Hes not this crazy to phrank you like this, im just bored now and i don't know what else to do. Just think tht it has nothing to do with danial, he is sane. And i am insane. So kay gtg sorry for the phrank dude, bye.



A friend of ADN used ADN's account fb to phrank this WH guy, pity him. haha

Went to bangsar!

So was looking for my sister's prom dress, then we passed by the little.black.book. Hehe so we went in, and and the sales person wnted me to try this dress. Which was weird coz both of them were like "you would look good in this one! ur body suits with this!" and i was like okayyyy :D so i just tried on wht they recommended and I BOUGHT IT ;)

THEN WE STOPPED BY AT *drum rolls

AND ATE TUTTI FRUTTI :D

Favourites connected

Why cant i , breathe, once again .
by liz phair, anna nalick and frankie jordan respectively.

I feel like watching old movies and listen to old soundtracks. Why am i going backwards? Not like im not appreciating what i have and where i am in now, i just feel like going back and just see what went wrong and what made me happy. And what was different compared to where i am now. Yesterday when i was listening my mp3, the song "linger - cranberries" was on. And i started crying, for what i reason? I have no idea. I think it was because of the movie, or maybe the situation i was in when the movie was still new.

: will you still love me in the morning?
;forever and ever babe.

I still remember myself using that line with somebody i love. And it never fails to remind me of how strong the love was.

Friends

I STRONGLY DISAGREE TO THIS ASH AND IMAN! hahaha

Ash and I talked about Tasha. Jeng jeng jeng...ha kutuk! Hahahaha, no lah. If we were to be one of the characters in Friends, which character would we be? So Ash said I would be Monica, since I'm a perfectionist and fussy and I can't stand dirtiness, she would be Chandler because she's the one who makes lame jokes (haha! *points finger*) and when she explains her jokes, she'd be the one who ends up laughing, not the listener (haha! Again, *points finger*), and Tasha would be Phoebe, or Joey. HAHA.

By the way, Tasha, you can ask Ash why she thinks you're like Phoebe, or Joey. Hahahaha.

maybe you guys always think tht im like phoebe or joey coz i mostly crap, but i dont think thts my real personality, imagine, would they be able to blog about these emo stuff? i dont think so -.-" Lets prove it by taking a personality test :)

and i goooooot *drum rolls, racheeeeel, okay, the thing in my mind was either rachel or ross.



oh and i got it from this website, why dont u guys try it to see if what u guys said is true :D But yeah i kinda agree that iman is monica and ash is chandler, strongly agree, but just try it. Oh yeah i wonder what atasha is, i think shes err ross maybe. Cz shes the realistic one maybe?

http://www.buddytv.com/personalityquiz/friends-personalityquiz.aspx?quiz=1000006


oh and i tried this website also, but the results cnnot post here, so no prove for this one, but i still got rachel -.-"


http://www.tbs.com/affinity/quiz/0,,6500,00.html

Fall again

Found out the truth

Now i know how you really feel. Im sorry for being here. But don't worry, i'll be gone soon.

Decision

Im confused. I really am and i feel lost, im in the middle of the road. Im not crossing, neither am i turning back. im just stuck in the middle not knowing what to do. Havent decided if i should go for the risky ride or the safe side? Bcause i don't know which one won't hurt me. Going to the risky side might break my heart if i crossed the road for no motive, left alone and stuck there not getting over the fact tht i chose the risky side and if i were to go to the safe side, i'd just cry for leaving the thing tht makes me happy.

Yesterday

I feel so empty today, maybe because you're not here. I can't believe i forced you into doing something you did not want to do. And now im the one being depressed, i can't blame you for saying yes. Im blaming myself for this. Yesterday and today is two different world. I was so happy this morning thinking about what happened, thinking about what we went through. I never felt so happy. I was never that happy. And my heart was beating so fast thinking about it. Thinking about how happy you made me eventhough i totally hated your guts. I thought i told myself to not fall in love, especially this year, Especially after all the heartbroken moments. I didn't wanna risk myself into something that would hurt so much but i can't help it. I was always so realistic but with him i wasnt.

They can take tomorrow where the plans we made,
They can take the music that we never play,
All the broken dreams take everything,
Just take it away but they can never have yesterday.