Memories

You can never actually run from your past. You will eventually meet them again, no matter how much it hurts you. No matter how much it gives you pleasure. I can't believe im meeting my past again. I haven't really talk to Mr.Past for around 2 years something? And you were the best Mr.Past among all the Pasts I had. This sounds weird, mybe i'll give u name hmm steve? ah i dnt cre whatever nicknme it is. Well, he was the best thing that has ever happened to me. He showed me what the definition of love was. Do u notice how i put everything as past tense? haha. Every great thing he did was before. And then it broke my heart when i knew steve got over me for not more than 3 days after it ended. He got through a breakdown because he saw the girl he loved in someone else's arms. And the girl that he loved wasn't me. After i knew what he went through, i thought it'd be great if i was gone from his life. Because i tried contacting him for 3 days, and i didnt get any respond. Then i got to know this from someone in his life. I build walls between me and him. I promised myself to get over him. Felt like i lost everything when he was gone. I had flings and crushes with or to 18 or 16 guys, but he was the one i thought would be forever in my life. I couldn't blame him because of everything. Because i know i ruined it too with my attitude. I loved him too much till I wanted him to be more than perfect when i couldn't see that he was already beyond perfect for me. I made him feel as if he wasn't good enough for me. I made him feel as if he has screwed my life. I made him feel like he was useless. And finally, I made him cry.
But now he's so happy with his princess, and im so happy for him.
He deserves way better than me.
But it was just a shock to know that we could still bond as friends after years of building walls between each other.
And that alrdy makes me glad.

But im still 16 and it's a long way to go :)