TIPS

Woke up this morning with a hungry tummy. I was bored and awake. And I was waiting for my dad to buy breakfast. And i can't rlly read BOOKS when im hungry, i'll get cranky. Instead of tht, i surfed the net for BENEFICIAL STUFFS too, meaning i was on my twitter, too :P Searched for SPM tips 2011, and see if most of the tips i got and the predictions on the imprtnt topics are right. Just wanna share some, since i find the tips kind of accurate with what i've got, which are tons of tips.

Tips for Bm, Sej, Chem, Bio and Physics

http://www.bumigemilang.com/?p=11935

Mangatar

So i was stressed, bcause of my studies. And so, i wanted to release some tension. This idea just came popping into my head, cartoooons. I guess it's bcause i havent watched any cartoon for awhile now, so i googled "cartoonize myself" HAHA. And there are all these websites, for cartoons and editing pictures and whatsoever. I found this one website which I thought was pretty cute, so i tried visiting the website and created an account. I compared my picture so tht i can create A CARTOON OF MYSELF. And I got addicted to it, so cartoonized Ash, Nicole, Iman, Aina, Nahra and Sonia too. I took a picture of Ash from my documents, got an old picture. Iman from her dp in facebook and Nicole at my brdy album where she was doing bio. Aina was from my brdy album too! Nahra was in her baju kurung, when we had this raya celeb thing at school. And sonia some random PICS, SO HARD TO FIND HER HAIR. So here are the results!

ME!

Ashiqin!



Nicole!


Aina!


Iman!


Nahra!

Sonia!

Where is yr spirit?

My eldest sister got accepted to SIU, which I THINK stands for south illinois university. So she'll be going to America in december. IM SO GLADDD SHES GOING AWAY. hahaha. She's a pain in the ass and etc. All these furthering studies and pursuing dreams thingy is making me wanna study harder. And I will achieve the results tht i deserve. InsyaAllah. I will try my best.

Middle

I feel much better that we have fixed this problem, glad to have her back in our life :)

Tho, after everything is actually finally okay. Something goes wrong. My ear. My right ear, i can't hear anything. I was talking to rishantinee in class around 8am, then suddenly there was this sound *teet* and suddenly i cant hear anything. At first i thot, its the typical, my ear got temporarily blocked. So i tried drinking water, swallowing my salive, myrah tried covering my nose and i tried to blow, so tht it'll solve the problem. And i tried putting water in my ear. After resting my head on the table for a few minutes, i wanted to go to nahra's table. Bcause i wanted to inform her, and suddenly when i tried standing, I wasn't stable. I felt like falling down, my left side of the body was much more denser than my right side. Cz i culdnt hear anything on the right side of my ear. You know how i am, never really accepting a fact right at the time. I was still in denial, tried to laugh, make a joke out of it. Then suddenly I just cried cz i rlly didnt hear anything. I culdnt. I mean like rlly culdnt. So Myrrah, Nahra, and Iman just approached me and asked me about my ear. It wasnt improving. I had to go to the canteen with both of my arms and hands held by nahra and myrrah. After recess, Nicole had to take care of me. So she was the one holding me, to make sure I was okay. Went back to class after tht, and the ex prefects had jamuan, so this time got help from Nicole & Iman. I rlly did feel like an old woman.

And then school ended. Waited for my dad and a few minutes later, i saw his car at the back. So i went in front again to take my bag but i forgot tht i culdnt walk properly so i just hold on tightly to whatever tht was solid. My dad looked pretty worried, he kept looking at me and thot something was wrong with my leg.. I was too devastated i culdnt tell him what was wrong. I was afraid tht i was gonna cry, so i wrote it down on a small post it paper and gave it to him. But i still cried bcause i culdnt believe in the fact tht i culdnt hear anything. And he tried to book an appointment today with the doctor, but his schedule was full. So tmrrw morning im going to the hospital for a check up. Wish me luck and hope its not permanent, insyaAllah.

Quotes for the day

HAHA MAAAAAN, this quote above me, gave me a slap in the face. Im not living by this quote, just posting it :p



















(quote above me) this should be true? no? Hehe. Kidding. *praying for it to be true*

There's a corner of your heart

I keep dreaming of you. It's making me sick. Not bcause I hate you but bcause i know there's no hope for me to actually get to confess this. These dreams are haunting, pressuring me to open my mouth and say the words. You know I can't. We all know I can't. I don't have the guts to. I don't know what else to say about you. Im not even supposed to think about you. I have better things to think about. But I can't help dreaming of you? I did not decide that. So can you just go away and let me face the reality? I'd rather know that i have no hope being with you with no fact rather than with a fact.

Procrastination

Idk if I wanna update my blog abt my destress moment with ashIqin :p I think I will bt myb tmrrw. For noooow, I just wanna say tht I'm dying cz spm is near. Haha k tht doesn't make sense. Aaand my eldest sister is going to America this dec, maybe with my dad, maybe not. She's furthering her studies there. Hurrah! I get the room all to myself! This calls for a complete makeover, (after she's gone). I know it'll be a lil bit lonely. Bcause I fight with her often, and she cn be bitchy all the time. Bt she's my sister. And I guess I'm gnna miss her. But there's always Skype, so i dnt think I'll miss her tht much hahaha u know this is my ego talking. I'm so jealous of her, nt bcause she gets to further her studies there. But bcause she culd explore the culinary wonders there. I mean most of the food company is based there. Factories. Restaurants with all kinds of varieties. Just thinking tht she culd just walk arnd and bump into foods tht were never in Malaysia. Or maybe even divers scallops, just kills me :( anywaaaays, my dad told me tht right after my spm ends. He's gonna send me to driving school! I'm not so excited abt tht, I mean I was bfr but thinking abt my personality, the paranoid me, the blur me, the not so alert me, the forgetful me, i don't know how I'm gnna survive on the road. It's just so scary, people honking all they want, the noise, the pollution, the possibilities of me getting accidents, injured, and for the fact tht I hate speed! I think I'll just drive like a snail. I think. My moms even more scared to face this fact cz she knows how blur I am. Hahaha. And my dad is sending me somewhere to train me for tennis. But tht doesn't stop me from wanting to go to the gym! He said I culd only choose one. I like the thrill of tennis, I like the motive of gym too. I need to do both. I just need to. Idk if I wnt to find a part time job whie waiting for my spm results. I mean I culd use some cash. Oh yes annd ashiqin and I decided to go to prom. Why? Bcause we thot there will be good food and it's our last time to meet the people we love, like and dislike. Hahaha I'm kidding nt dislike, we do not dislike anybody, we just dislike their personality smtimes. But I mean we culd be bitchy and all wrong too sometimes. We're definitely human :) and I'm still figuring wht I wanna be after spm, I'm torn between hearts and brains decision. My dad wants to send me to uitm to do mathematics so tht later on I culd further my studies overseas and maybe pursue more deeper in tht field and teach, educate other people. I find it fun to teach and it rlly means something to me when someone is able to push themselves higher. Buut I also wnt to take actuarial science, seen the forums, heard from experience, they all say I'm gnna back out half way doing it. They say it's even harder than medicine, but I'm still considering it :) and Im going to tke cullinary, just nt now, maybe after a traditional course I'm going to take. My passion is still there and I'm nt going to neglect it. Tho, I'm also considering performing arts secretly. I hv a thing for theaters. Eventho I sleep in some of it buut tht was bcause I was sleepy and it was boring. Haha I like acting, found an interest in acting in the process of our interclass drama competition. I was the crazy kid who.... U dnt need to know more abt tht, let's just keep it as a memory shall we ? :p and I love to sing , I mean I sing all the time. In my shower.... When I cook, when I study, when I sleep (In my dreams!), found this interest when I entered Cbn idol when I was 12 :p wasn't very good at it bcause I dint knw how to use the microphone -.-" anyways, I look at other people and they look like theyve figured everything out. Tho, I'm nt pressured yet bcause I knw I gotta think abt spm first. I still need to fix on my bio, sej and agama. It's so difficult.