3.00am

So it's new years eve! The last day for the year of 2011, a loooong loong year. The exam year. The stressful year. The year that has taught me a lot of things that the years before did not. A year full of tears & happiness. A year full of shocking things. A year full of hugs. A year full of cherish. A year where the friendship bond got strengthen between me and my friends.

Alhamdulillah. I don't know how to put everything in words. But whatever that happened, really did made an impact on me. It made me stronger. I know this year im not really a good person, i mistreat a lot of people. And I always assume the negative things. I followed my ego, i was stubborn, i was ignorant, i did not put a lot of effort to be grateful. Im sorry. Im sorry Allah, im sorry parents, and im sorry friends. But most of all, im sorry myself. Im sorry I never loved myself the way that I was supposed to. Im sorry if i have ever offended any of my friends. I know I did, im sorry for all of the imperfections I have. I do not want to be arrogant, I do not want to be angry, I do not want to be envious, I do not want to be proud. I know what I am, I know who I am. And I think i've been judging myself much more than I have judge others. I was not supposed to do all those things, not to my friends. The friends that stood by me when I needed them, the friends that lend me their shoulders, the friends that will always give me a hug if i need it, the friends that will always slap me in the face if i was ever asleep and blind. I am sorry if i was ever disrespectful to any of you. Im sorry if i was stubborn to my parents. Im sorry that I always put my deaf ears on. It's selective hearing and I know i shuldnt do that to my parents. To be honest, there are a lot of things that i'd like to say to my friends. Things that I am not satisfied about. Things that I wish they could see. Things that I wish they could change.

We all know it's always hard for me to stand up to myself. I might look tough to some of you but deep inside im just scared and lost, and weak. Compared to my friends who are confident, proud, intelligent, and knowledgeable. Sometimes it's hard for me to catch up. I feel like im the turtle and they're all rabbits.

But I just can't afford to lose them, so i am gonna tolerate this situation. Because I love them. Despite our differences.

Kit Kat

This little kitten has been sleeping with me for the past few months. And I love him! JUST ONE THO; he biiiites. Like reaaally bite. It's like a habit, he'll get this frenzy and he'll just jump and bite whatever that's moving. He even bites my cheek! And to just stop him, sometimes i would cover his body with the cushion to make him relax. Not tightly against him, if not he wouldnt have the chance to breathe. Haha obviously. But he's like my bestfriend now. I mean he's a really smart kitten, everytime im awake, he would just jump over me and sometimes lick my face to say goodmorning! If im awake, he is too! and if i tell him tht its bedtime, literally tell him, he'll know. I'd switch off the lights, and he would just lay down beside me and slowly closing his eyes. Im saying this generally cats are smart and cute creatures. They're kind too! I don't get why some people are scared and disgusted by them. They do bite and scratch, but tht's typical habits. Sometimes its their way of showing their love. And sometimes its just them being defensive. They can sense the bad vibe coming from people. That's why they react that way. This is a random post, about kit kat. Since it's rainy and gloomy, kit kat is taking a short nap now.

Sprinkle Bakes!

Yohoo, again... haha. A few days ago, I found this blog. This girl is so passionate about desserts that her research was precise and her creativity just clicks with her intelligance. She even admires Julia Child! Tho, im not really into baking bcause most of it involves it bt I love her idea of "desserts".

Edible spoon with Peanut Butter Mousse!

Source: http://www.sprinklebakes.com/2010/03/peanut-butter-mousse-in-tuile-cookie.html?showComment=1267709159637_AIe9_BHPX82brTblyiOrQI4VRscIttN3HdM3Blm1iVMiXEuURgPmwI43_M2cBLRLXSil_Hx9YiIP67qaE_SBKXX1QeivE1SzDqyxi6mkzas90QUYiUjjUja9rG3vynlltxoN4SBLT7f156Uh7SBkTnZBugM54UMe54xshGq5W_OS3jPc7HJotx-BpMf1vTmQn1JXr3VVpHk1G4fLa3gWrMP7W3rk-IZ9D6hnr7EXGx4qrhD_G5WBDmH_7p3sSl_LCwp6NGr17gSD#c7922164400285806914

Raindough

Was visiting curves ampang web at fb, thinking of joining next week :) And i saw this photo curves posted at the fb wall. A photo of pretty cupcakes! And i opened the website where they ordered it which is; www.raindough.com.my. And i saw such creative cakes! Such as; rainbow cake, mrs reese, choko nilla, the o.c, red velvet, teasers maltesers, cookie monsters. Dont they alrdy sound cute? :)

FROM GYM TO DELICIOUS SWEET CAKES. how can tht happen? :P

Was thinking of ordering one for a gathering bbq party my friends and I are going to have!

Admiring the Bilson

I feel like crying, i love her style :')

Day/Night Beach

Day/Night Beach by ezleennatasha featuring a pleated skirt

Roberto Cavalli draped top
$695 - net-a-porter.com

Kimono top
$90 - witchery.com.au

The Row scoop neck shirt
€169 - jades24.com

Dorothy Perkins pleated skirt
$44 - dorothyperkins.com

Roberto Cavalli floral skirt
$1,159 - mytheresa.com

T KEES flip flop shoes
$55 - calypsostbarth.com

Valentino flip flop shoes
€133 - lindestore.com

Buy Sue Fenlon- Beach Blossoms Framed Print, 69 x 69cm online at...
£100 - johnlewis.com

Polyvore 1#

Perfection is Simplicity by ezleennatasha featuring long maxi dresses

Day/Night Beach by ezleennatasha featuring flip flop shoes

I was bored after the deep conversation Nicole and I had. So i tried playing polyvore. I was just wondering wht I culd wear with blazers, so i mismatch a little bit. And thought of what the type of thing I WOULD wear.

Emo kicking in

Fortunate enough to have Nicole at this hour. I wish she was here. I wish all of them were here.

After hving this emo conversation with nicole, I found a word that could conclude the description of bond my friends and I had, and the word is sincerity.

I miss her

23rd december - Birthday of my dearest nahra yasmin.

HAHA THE PIC OF US WHEN WE WERE FORM 4!

our face so mentah, cheh not mature yet :P Happy birthday my dearest! Im glad youve finally turned 17, but most of all, im glad your mother gave birth to such a wonderful person. A person with a big heart. A person I know I can always count on. We've had our bad moments, we've been dissapointed with each other. We've had our silent treatment moments too. That I can't deny. We've lashed out on each other pretty often. But when we've fallen, knocked down by life. And we can't find the strength to stand up again. We always find each other again. You had my shoulder to lean on and I had yours. I had your attention and you had mine. We had each others back. I feel like crying. I miss you.

I can't believe we're not classmates anymore, i can't believe i won't get to see yr blur face in the morning everytime there's school. I don't wanna sound corny. I don't wanna sound emo. But i think i alrdy did tht. I don't cry over petty things. But i cry over the strongest bond of friendship tht we had.

I mean, come on, nahra, u've just turned 17. Time is moving so fast. It seems like we were just in high school yesterday. And now look at us, talking to each other on the internet.

I miss the fact tht everytime i turn to you, you drop yr pencils and pens and just fully listen to me. Everytime i felt like crying, u always know wht to say or wht to do. I never questioned or doubted you in making me feel better. You always knew how to make me feel okay. And now it's not in high school yet, i can't annoy you anymore.

I miss your random unreasonable statements tht makes me pissed off with you. I miss you stealing my stationeries when i dont see it. I miss you pulling my plate at the canteen table everytime my eyes escaped from the plate. I miss you just lining up with me and act all deaf bcause yr blur. I miss my TED. i miss bullying you, i miss you telling me tht u suck in cooking and tht u burn things. I MISS YOU. And a few minutes ago, when you said goodbye to our conversation. Saying tht u miss me. I felt it. It hit me. Real hard. AND WITH THE NOT HELPING CHRISTINA PERRI EMO SONG, i cried reading it. Realizing tht i miss you too.

I hope you will always be my best friend. As childish as tht sounds, I promise you, you will always be someone tht I care about. We might grow apart, but you'll always be tht permanent memory in my mind.

SICKKK

yeaaah so ive been sick for a few days now. I can't believe it myself, i mean i thot ive got a strong anti body :( and tmrrw im going to johor in the morning by train with my mom and sisters, cz my dad is coming back late since he has work. And i need to help my aunt with her wedding favors and stuff, since im her partial wedding planner! Im glad my dad booked rooms where i cn actually lay down and all in a private room and not share any space with strangers. But i dont know if i can even go thru this, i know its just a fever, what a spoilt brad tasha :P But this time its rlly killing me, my nose is blocked, my eyes are red, my throat is feeling scratchy, and im deaf. Oh wait im alrdy deaf. HAHA. im kidding... Anyways, i havent pack my bags, and i need to make a list for that. I need to just get up and make one, :(

Ya Allah, give me strength. Amin.

Shopping

Hehe, went shopping a few days ago. And I liiike my new clothes! Actually I feel like buying a blazer, buttt am I gonna wear it? What am I gonna wear it with? Blouse, dress, t-shirts? Yes bt I'm broad shouldered, I'm scared the blazer will make me look like a robot :/

Crave

Im obsessed with this meaningful song
as
It touches my soul everytime.

Makes me miss my friends, everyone's not gonna be in kl. I can't wait for all of us to spend time with each other again. And high school is over, we won't get to see each other everyday anymore. Time flies by so fast.
P/s: Nicole, im waiting for a miracle too.

CHECKLIST!

haha havent been blogging and all since im busyy resting and going out with my family. Went out yesterday to find Ezza's boots for the winter since she's going to US during tht season. Which is in a few weeks. CAN'T WAIT TO REDECORATE MY ROOM WHEN SHE'S GONE. ha har!

Oh yeah and when I was walking with my dad, my mom came up and said heyy we didnt buy any brdy present for u did we? Then i was like ....... no. I JUST REMEMBERED I DIDNT GET ANYTHING FROM THEM. i think.... well yesterday was eimaan's brdy. so they immediately thought of wht i havent got? so they asked me wht i wnted. And i said I want..... Julia Child cookbook, both volumes, which costs arnd 200 plus. And then my dad laughed -.-" So we kept walking and walking, and i remembered something tht i rlly wanted for a long time. And i immediately said "CRABTREE AND EVELYN" YESS FINALLY! now i knw wht i wnt. And i NEVER had the guts to enter the shop bcause it was so expensiveeeeee, i culdnt say it was affordable bcause it rlly wasnt :/ a small hand cream costs around 43 bucks and a lotion mostly costs 100 bucks plus.
And i have been searching for this lotion tht prince hotel gave from crabtree and evelyn and it just felt so refreshing, sooo when i was in the store, i tried almost all the testers to see which one was the smell cz i forgot the flavour. then i tried the "jojoba oil" lotion, AND I FOUND ITTT. I was go glaaad, Ive been searching it since last year! So my dad got me the jojoba body lotion and since i also fancy the pomegranate smell, he bought me the pomegranate hand therapy cream. THANKS PAPA! :D

Oh yeah lots of plans after spm, i just didnt start on anything yet. I still wanna rest and all, i feel so tired!
Well theres, cooking classes, driving license, gym, shopping and planning for my bbq party, and my aunts and cuz's wedding, anddddd my sis's brdy party and my eldest sis's going away party! AAAH lots to plan and I still havent done my movie marathon, :) Im taking a break from cooking, i wanna fill my recipe book first with all the recipes, and maybe today if i hv the time and energy, i'll try to do the fortune cookies :)