Awkward

That awkward moment when yr dad asked you if you have any boyfriend or not and you don't have any, you don't even hv anyone you fancy, you don't even have anyone to think abt, and you don't know whether to answer yr dad seriously or in a funny way bcause its funny tht he's asking you at the time where u dont like anyone. And u laughed answering his question, and he thinks differently. HAIYER. Spm also havent finish.

Replaced

I was going thru some websites, about volunteer work. Since my sister ezza went to this Tasputra place, a place where they take care of disabled children and all. And i was trying to remember who replaced my post as community service director in interact club fr next year. Maybe I culd recommend this place to my junior. I mean I know im not a comm serv director anymore but its something tht I can still do. When I was the comm serv director in my club, everything was hectic, the schedule too. Since I was dealing with spm and all, and I only planned a visit to the old folk's home beside my school, cbn. Well, we've been there twice, and I felt guilty tht i culdnt bring them somewhere different. But we still had fun and it was a good experience to me. To put my myself in their shoes. To see them laugh and be all joyful like they never doubt why they were choosen to be there. The one thing tht i'll always remember is when they asked me to pray. Never stop praying, no matter to which god I pray to. Just keep praying and never lose faith. Put extra effort to pray, to believe in god.

Polar Bear

Anyways, I was going thru some photos from my twitter account. The photos i tweeted when i got admitted into the hosp. I MISS THE HOSP! Everyone was suddenly nice to me and no one cn make me stress :D (the advice from doctor) Mehehe.


Remember this ASH? I dont know if im the one looking sick, or her :P

This is Umar sleeping on my mom's extra bed when he was waiting for me at the hosp with my sisters.

And this is my sisters, Ezza & Eimaan playing with MY BED, while i SAT ON THE SOFA -.-" Who's sick nw?

The red velvet cake, Umar bought for me! And the teddy bear tht Ash gave me, I named it Bronks bcause I was having bronchitis !

My sister made me this badge for me using her badge maker tht she bought from toys r us, printed the picture of a polar bear and wrote "IM BI-POLAR" below the pic. I mean i guess it is kinda of a fact, tht im bipolar :P My mom was like, "why would you expose yrself to people? I mean this way? Why do u wanna show it?" Well actually im not only bipolar, i have another disorder, buuuut, thts something u don't hv to know abt :D Im quite a freak, believe it or not. That's why i hv a rlly small circle of friends. They accept me for who I am. And it's hard to find friends tht cn accept you with a maniac personality.

Different

Just now after I performed my maghrib prayers, kit kat, my kitten was playing in the room, she was jumping here, jumping there. Trying to pull my telekung and all. Then when I was reciting my al-Quran, my kitten looked at me differently. She immediately stop jumping, and she just stood in front of me and looked at me as if she was gonna cry. Kit kat's ears were teary, and it wasn't my imagination, I felt something when she stared at me. So she hopped on my lap and hugged my hand. It was one of a kind moment. Never been thru it bfr. Nways, Salam maal hijrah to all the Muslims :)

Long phone call

After a few months of burying my phone, and neglecting it. I felt like it was importnt for me to finally switch it on, so I did yesterday. It took a few hours to finally recharge my phone. And i got tons of miscalls and text msgs. Shockingly, I thought no one cared abt me :( But i mean i barely use my phone, with all the twitter account, and fb. I keep my friends close thru those sites. And im always at home, so why on the phone? Well the reason why im posting abt a long phone call is bcause i just had one :P with my bestfriend, Ash! Haha we're such babies :P We talked about Jimmy Neutron. and about patrick star. Im kidding... i think. We talked about spm, what we're going to do after tht, when we're gonna start taking our driver's license and how we're gonna spend our new years. And plan a bbq with our girlfriends. I think my life revolves around my family and my girlfriends. They're like the main characters in my life. I don't even have any minor ones.


Ash cant trust me with cars esp when im a paranoid freak. I don't like cars speeding, it's just so scary. I mean you might just get into an accident, and u might just get hurt, and then by tht time, u'll regret doing wht u did, and u'll say i wish i didnt do tht, i wish i had more time with the people tht i love and blablabla. Something irreversible. I don't wanna regret it. But then, how am I going to drive a car? I mean drivers these days, they're all speeding! no actually some of them are nt, bt i think its too fast for me :/ I have to get myself a person who knows how to drive! Not as a driver, but as a teacher? Maybe. I don't know, I HAVE TO OVERCOME THIS.

Tinglish

Felt something different the first time I ......

Superstar

Im not yr personal cheerleader and you're not the superstar. Stop treating me like im your motivational robot. We've known each other since we were 15, since you were lame, pathetic, playful, immature and you. Now tht yr life has revolved around different people, different surroundings. You act like im always the back up. I can be here when you need me, but only when you treat me like im your friend. I can just walk away from you. It's not like i get paid, but im doing this sincerely bcause i know who you were. And i know people change, but i can adapt to the change if you would just stop treating me like im yr cheerleader. Treat me with respect. You know me, im very practical. So don't think i can't walk away from this attitude of yours.

Quote of the day

The defects and faults of the mind are like wounds in the body. After all imaginable care has been taken to heal them up, still there will be a scar left behind.

Afraid

I wanna watch breaking dawn, i know most people are gonna say "eee u wanna watch breaking dawn, so gay, or so lame or pfft its just breaking dawn or hey am i the only one who doesnt wanna watch breaking dawn?" haha seriously? with that attitude, its gonna bring u nowhere in life.

I think people have rights to like what they like. Why judge wht they like? Unless if its illegal or something, or it bothers you or haunts you, then yes do say something abt it. But this, is just a movie, and do u think its cool tht u say this? "am i the only one thts not excited for breaking dawn?" does tht make u an adult? does tht make u special?

And yes u have rights to dislike whatever u want to dislike. But seriously? People don't wanna hear it. Negativeee thingss. Negative thoughts. No, you are not welcome to say something negative. Im not saying this to one person, im saying this to tons of people. If you think tht movie is gay, lame, pathetic, then just keep quite. Okay?

Anyways, I can't wait for Nicole's birthday. I have a special pressie for her! :)

Isn't this blog post just bipolar :)

Taking the chance

WEEHOO, spm is almost over, and im having my 4 day break, just waiting till i get my chemistry and biology boots on! Just had a good breakfast, and still no mood to study, im still tired. Hihi excuses, i know :P Watched puss in boots yesterday! That cute little kitttyyyy! And kitty soft paws. and daamn it was funny. Watched it with my sisters, eimaan and ezza, oh yeah and umar's friends. NOW I KNOW WHAT HUMPY DUMPTY'S MIDDLE NAME IS. mwuahahaha, idk if its a fact or a myth tho. Yesterday was my "letting go of my stress dont u come back" day! ahuuuh ahuuuh. But of course it'll say hi to me again on tuesday and wednesday. Then on thursday, i'll be patrick under a rock. sleeeeping all dayyy longgg, doing whatever i want.

I wonder if i shuld do any part time jobs. I mean where would i fit in? In a restaurant? Who knows :)
Im gonna start on my tasha's fav recipes folio. Can't wait. Cooking everything, doing experiments, and gather it in one special book :') Maybe i'll even make a copy for ezza, since god knows wht shes gonna eat at America.