Yaw,
Never been better, feeling great, although, i still hvent decide whether i shuld throw away the memories, haha bt the point is, why am i still thinking abt it? I can't say i feel complete, neither cn i by saying it incomplete.
I can't describe this feeling, whenever i dnt think about it, it's like it never happened.
ok well IM FEELING GREAT, haha, parents bought me some clothes, THNK YOU, and i knw i shuld be working harder, well i have been, i online only for the goodness of releasing my stress, haha, yesterday i made the form 1 sejarah book as my story book, and aftr i had my lunch i made my agama book as the story book, even then at school, i was reading the agama book 24/7, whenever im in the class or where ever i am, when of course the teacher is not in the class, haha eventhough i think the teacher was pshyco enugh to be convinced tht im stressing too much about it, oh well, thts wht achieving a high goal for. haha. gotta work hard, and since i've been more "alim" than ever, haha i was planning to ehem *dnt laugh, pakai tudung, hahaha, i think i wanna do tht starting frm trials :)
just wnted to inform tht studies are going great, :)
*reminder,
sleep at 9 something if theres no tuisyen, the latest is 10.30. then wake up at 4am to study, I hpe it goes in my head, amin :)
23 July 2009
22 July 2009
Whats been going on lately
Okay so, whats been going on? A lot, Im so worried abt my agama results, othrs im potentially confidnt i culd do better but i feel like im not moving anywhere for the agama subject.
Things have been really different for my surrounding. I feel more alone in a way that i find peace.
The only person i turn to now is ashiqin, i mean constntly i turn to her, she's always there, and she's an einstein.
Well thank god, i havent been using my credit tht much, losing him was gving me the benefit to save my money, although he is still my friend, but nw i dnt think i wish to get involve with him. Because if i was involve with him, i'd remember the old times and i'd still care abt whats going on with his life. At the same time, i'd get hurt knwing if he was someone new with new surroundings i culd never accept.
I dnt always fight for what i want, when im supposed to be fighting for what i need. He was my need but now it turns into a want, and in the end, nothing. I don't know how to get distant, but i think we alrdy are.
Was planning to tear his letter, throw our pic, throw his pics, delete his msgs, delete our call recordings, throw his nametag, anything tht might bring up the topic of him. I went to school with my very sepet eyes since i naturally hv it, it ended up looking like i was sleep walking. Cried for hours and hours and hours, and suddenly i realized tht i was doing a stupid thing when i culd cry for something else? O.o
Anis was hearing me, Syaza did too, even Sarah. The othrs i didnt rlly care to inform.
I have been feeling better and i took some time to think of the better opportunity for me to run after.
I wanna start praying 5 times a day, read al quran whenever i hv my free time, study and plan my schedule, stop smsing, never entertain guys ecxpt for zarif n faiz (bestfs),
P/s : Reminder fr myself, dnt cry. Be happy :) * dont worry, ooooo, be happy, oooo, dnt worry be happy now! haha. the song :P
And good luck to you anonymous, for facing pmr, hope whatever u say is not a lie, even myb if i suspected u as being the ex gf, haha, i wuldnt mind, bt i dnt think u are, so thnks , tht u told me abt whatever stuff u thought i had to know, and congratulations tht u were strong by facing wht u faced :)
Amin,
Things have been really different for my surrounding. I feel more alone in a way that i find peace.
The only person i turn to now is ashiqin, i mean constntly i turn to her, she's always there, and she's an einstein.
Well thank god, i havent been using my credit tht much, losing him was gving me the benefit to save my money, although he is still my friend, but nw i dnt think i wish to get involve with him. Because if i was involve with him, i'd remember the old times and i'd still care abt whats going on with his life. At the same time, i'd get hurt knwing if he was someone new with new surroundings i culd never accept.
I dnt always fight for what i want, when im supposed to be fighting for what i need. He was my need but now it turns into a want, and in the end, nothing. I don't know how to get distant, but i think we alrdy are.
Was planning to tear his letter, throw our pic, throw his pics, delete his msgs, delete our call recordings, throw his nametag, anything tht might bring up the topic of him. I went to school with my very sepet eyes since i naturally hv it, it ended up looking like i was sleep walking. Cried for hours and hours and hours, and suddenly i realized tht i was doing a stupid thing when i culd cry for something else? O.o
Anis was hearing me, Syaza did too, even Sarah. The othrs i didnt rlly care to inform.
I have been feeling better and i took some time to think of the better opportunity for me to run after.
I wanna start praying 5 times a day, read al quran whenever i hv my free time, study and plan my schedule, stop smsing, never entertain guys ecxpt for zarif n faiz (bestfs),
P/s : Reminder fr myself, dnt cry. Be happy :) * dont worry, ooooo, be happy, oooo, dnt worry be happy now! haha. the song :P
And good luck to you anonymous, for facing pmr, hope whatever u say is not a lie, even myb if i suspected u as being the ex gf, haha, i wuldnt mind, bt i dnt think u are, so thnks , tht u told me abt whatever stuff u thought i had to know, and congratulations tht u were strong by facing wht u faced :)
Amin,
13 July 2009
Sick
Okay doks, so yesterday i went jogging with my cousins, faroq and kak farah, it was fun, kak farah parked the car in kde, so yeah we put all of our stuffs in kak farah's bag and then we put it in the back of the car, after we closed everythng, kak farah didnt know where to put her car keys -.-" So yeah mine had no pockets, also hers, and faroq had, ecxpt tht it was too small. So i suggest kak farah to give her keys to the guard, well, she said even myb the guards would steal the car -.-" Uhh, bad idea, so anyways, faroq offered to hold the key, so he did, and we jogged, when we went up the hill, it was just a slow walk, when a hot guy passes by, kak farah was like looking at me with a wink, so yeah i was blur, coz i didnt rlly look, im strictly forbidden to do tht, hehe loyalty :P
Okay so we continued, faroq brought biscuits, to feed the monkeys, haha, (yea ryte,) :P *jogging jogging jogging, a few guys riding their motorbikes passed us, and a guy wearing green or white shirt looked, he seemed familiar, anyways, still jogging, and we were there, wnted to jogged down the hill, we thought it was a good idea because it wuldnt be tht tiring compared to jogging up the hill, so we did, faroq, me and kak farah jogged, 1,2,3 blast off -.-"
Well, i was the last one, because it was FREAKING BUMPYY I TELL YOU! everything was going up and down, up and down, hahahaha, ok, seriously, i meant movements of my leg :P
Kak Farah and i were laughing like hell going down the hill, i felt like a kangaroo, it's not like im jogging, it's like im hopping down the hill with no hopes of stopping O.O
well then i started shouting to faroq, because he was so ahead of us,
Ezleen N: FAROQ I KNOW YOU DONT HAVE THINGS BERGEGAR ON YR BODY!
Kak Farah; Uhh wait he does,
Ezleen N; *heh? he does? he has boobs? nope couldnt be, an ass? nope he's practically a lil flat, uhh, chubby cheeks? nope nope, not rlly, and then this came across my mind *you know wht.... ....... OHHHHHH! THAT ONE, THE THING THAT OHHHH YEAH GOT IT, UNDERSTOOD, *im so slow -.-"
Kak Farah; HAHAHAHA, yeah that one tasha, hahahah. Lucky him that when the thing shakes, tk nampak, hahaha.
Ezleen N; we were laughing like hell while going down the hill, :D
Since, faroq was ahead of us, he waited for us infront, EATING THE BISCUITS WE THOUGHT HE WOULD FEED THE MNKEYS WITH! Great job faroq, Haishooo.
Okay so we continued, faroq brought biscuits, to feed the monkeys, haha, (yea ryte,) :P *jogging jogging jogging, a few guys riding their motorbikes passed us, and a guy wearing green or white shirt looked, he seemed familiar, anyways, still jogging, and we were there, wnted to jogged down the hill, we thought it was a good idea because it wuldnt be tht tiring compared to jogging up the hill, so we did, faroq, me and kak farah jogged, 1,2,3 blast off -.-"
Well, i was the last one, because it was FREAKING BUMPYY I TELL YOU! everything was going up and down, up and down, hahahaha, ok, seriously, i meant movements of my leg :P
Kak Farah and i were laughing like hell going down the hill, i felt like a kangaroo, it's not like im jogging, it's like im hopping down the hill with no hopes of stopping O.O
well then i started shouting to faroq, because he was so ahead of us,
Ezleen N: FAROQ I KNOW YOU DONT HAVE THINGS BERGEGAR ON YR BODY!
Kak Farah; Uhh wait he does,
Ezleen N; *heh? he does? he has boobs? nope couldnt be, an ass? nope he's practically a lil flat, uhh, chubby cheeks? nope nope, not rlly, and then this came across my mind *you know wht.... ....... OHHHHHH! THAT ONE, THE THING THAT OHHHH YEAH GOT IT, UNDERSTOOD, *im so slow -.-"
Kak Farah; HAHAHAHA, yeah that one tasha, hahahah. Lucky him that when the thing shakes, tk nampak, hahaha.
Ezleen N; we were laughing like hell while going down the hill, :D
Since, faroq was ahead of us, he waited for us infront, EATING THE BISCUITS WE THOUGHT HE WOULD FEED THE MNKEYS WITH! Great job faroq, Haishooo.
-.-"
Okay so while i was searching quotes through photobucket, i found this, haha, like come on seriously, u wanna go to hell just because it's cold outside, haha, i cn seriously buy you a sweater, tht'll be easier and it doesnt gain sins for yrself -.-" Hahah. Anyways, i just think it's funny, thts why i put it in my post, haha.
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