Absence

So i didn't go to school today, since im alrdy sick of being late and i alrdy got my 2nd warning letter, and trust me, im putting all the blame on my sisters especially, Ezza Melina, shes the worst, she is never early and she is one selfish person, always think about her timing and not other people, dh tau nak keluar pagi2 dgn adik sume, bangun la awal, mandi la awal, bila orng tegur die suruh cpt, die kata orng bising, i swear ur attitude is like shit. You need to change that. Start thinking about others, dgn her friends boleh pulak baik2, ckp lembut2, acting all supportive and nice, hello i can hear u when u talk otp or when u talk to ur friends when u meet them. Don't be such a two face, to your sisters u wanna act all rude. Im tired of your fucking attitude, PLEASE. CHANGE.

So yeah i still didnt wanna go to school eventhough my mom and dad asked me to, i pretended to sleep on the sofa. Anyways if i went to school today, i had to go on the public transport, mls. So let me have my break, im tired, im the only one who wakes up early in the morning and then go waking up everybdy else. Its so stupid seriously.
But my dad also the same, LAMBAT! dh kejut kan awal2, then mandi lmbt, i waited outside for 10 minutes. I kept my mouth shut coz we're only punctual when i open my mouth yelling "cpt laa! keluar pegy pakai kasut. can u hurry up! eyh cepat laa!" Yeah but today they wanna test my patience kan, test la.
I waited lama dkt luar, tunggu je if they would come outside and pakai kasut and open the gate and start the car engine. But they didnt and it was alrdy 6.55. and slalu keluar 6.45. and school starts at 7.15. So yes when the clock reaches 6.55, thats it, i went inside and slept on the sofa. Tadaaaaaa. nak lambat lagy kan? Lambat la :)

Tweetie :D

Okay so when i went home, i was too tired, so i watched tv , tasbih cinta and she wolf as always, NOAH IS SO CUTE, :D *serious anyways, after i was done, my sister brought the duckling inside, and it was sooooooo cute, I named him tweetie :D Haha. He had those cute flippers! And those small little wings :')
Haha its a very smart duckling, apart from when it fell on his back and his legs were like cycling. HAHA. And tht pun was also because after he swam, his tail and body was heavier than his head, HAHA. So cutee, he pooped a lot but it was only when he swam, -.-"
So after that, he dried himself up, he kept coming to me, i dont know why and he went jumping on top of my hand, he even pecks me on the cheek, :D
Hes so cute, then we fed him some bread, he likes it! haha so he became very tired and we put him in his cage again, "cage", it is a cage. HAHAHA

Destressing with my girls.

I had a good outing yesterday with my girls, Noor Ashiqin & Iman Nedhiera.

Okay so yesterday Ash arrived first, but it was only 15 minutes before i arrived. It was 11am, and damn we were early coz iman arrived around 1pm. So while waiting for iman, ash and I walked around the pavillion, bumped into some of our schoolmates. And kept walking. We were going to find some clothes. So we went to esprit, when we entered there, there was this really really pretty stripped blouse! And i had to have it, i just had to! But when i saw the price, it was 129.90. AND I WAS LIKE WHAT THE HELL! seriously, it was only a blouse but i was searching for something like that since last year and it was rlly pretty, and they only had L and XL, FISHSTICKS! So i tried it on first to see if it fits, and since im the type of girl who doesnt like something tht's body hugging and small, it was perfect for me :) So i used Ash's member card to buy the blouse ngehh made a small difference, it was 116.90. Haha. Thanks Ash for the add ons of 16.90 :P Haha. And then tadaaa it was finally mine!
I was so happy! And so we continued our walk, and then we passed by the cd store, so hehe we bought hannah montana the movie since Ash and I havent watched it. It was only 19.90, hehe cheap, pavillion was much more expensive. Okay so after that, we wanted to go down the manhattan fish market. So first we went down and down, and hahah this weird thing happened. We walked by this restaurant , and then this worker from the restaurant was like rushing towards the front of it, and when we walked by, he was looking at me and he was like "hyeee *smile" Soo yeah awkward, haha but i smiled back because he had nice eyes eventhough Ash said tht hes too old and tht he could be my father. I dont think so Ash :P haha. I think hes around his 30's, but so what, he still looks neat and charming :P a lil bit hahah.
I like neat guys, there so handsome haha.

Haha okay so we went down and bought tickets at tgv, "How to train your dragon", the movie was around 2.20. and so iman arrived a few minutes after that, we met her in front of coach. Weirdly, i thnk there was this guy who stopped and looked at me, like hes seen me somewhere, i think he was familliar to me too but i wouldnt know coz i didnt care and coz i didnt wear my specs hehe. And my power's 500, dont blame me, sorry :P
So i just went off with ash and Iman and we went downstairs for lunch. Okay first planning, manhattan fish market, then it was full, then next secret recipe, then full, then a&w then full then we went to subway then ngeeeh wasnt tht hungry, so we just went to dunkin donuts, since its something light to fill up our tummy :)
I cant believe i bought ice coffee, the last time i drank coffee was standard 6 and i hate coffee. Haha.
I ate some donuts and sandwiches. same with Ash, Iman ate a piece of choc cake with a donut and some latte? Haha. Okay so then we rushed up to tgv and we went into the cinema. Haha ohhh and there was this air pollution because there was this three girls who opened their shoes before the movie starts, its like a comfort thing for them, namely Ash , Iman and I. HAHAHA. Nolaa wasnt even smelly, we had good feet odour. Hehe. So the movie started. I got annoyed by the kid behind my seat because she kept kicking my seat , oh and yeah iman's too. I got so annoyed but i couldnt do anything because it was a kid. Even if i tell her not to do it , she wouldnt even be tht considerate to not. If she was my kid, i'd punch her in the face. Then ash said "i would never ever let tasha babysit my kids in the future" hahaha. Nolaa, i mean like i wouldnt literally punch her in the face, i would just maybe tie up her feet if she does tht, but im sure my kid in the future wouldnt behave like that. Iman looked back for a few times and gave the kid the "fierce look" but see she didnt even get it. WHERE ARE THE PARENTS, PLEASE GUIDE YOUR KIDS TO BEHAVE!
Haiiyhh.
But we enjoyed the movie, it was so cute, the dragon looked like a cat. Hehe and they named him toothless :P hahaha. So yeah then we continued our walk to find putri's and iman's mom's brdy present, but then around 4.00 something my dad called and told me hes picking me up in 5 minutes, so haiyh, iman and Ash gave me tht look. Im so sorry i had to go back early, i didnt even know i had to :/
I'll make it up to u guys! So then every 30 minutes, i called them to check up on them. And they said they alrdy bought this cute shirt fr putri at PDI. So im just glad, :)
Haha, i had fun with u guys, we'll do this again next time ! Love u girls :)

These Days

It has been really stressful lately, really really stressful. My head is full of studies. Its so true when the teachers said that form 4 is wayy different than form 3. There's studies and there's revising, sometimes i even feel like sleeping in the class cause of the insufficient time to sleep. It's really making my mind tired. And this stress made me go all angry and nuts almost all the time, and i tend to aim it to my friends. Which is rlly selfish of me. But then in the end, i'll just realize its stupid and apologise. And then i do it again when i am. Haha :D
That's one of my flaws. I cant deny it. Im not all suit up for a perfect impression.
People make mistakes. And i just salute those people who can deal with them not being perfect.
Because this is the world. It doesnt revolve around you. It revolves around everybdy. And even if u think so hard that the important matters for u are the only thing in the orbit, you're wrong.
I wanna make a change. I really do. I don't know why i've been so sensitive lately.
I needed to make a pidato for my bm lisan, and i wanted to do about pembuangan bayi.
So i googled about it, and saw pictures of the babies being thrown away. And i cant help it but to cry, cry thinking that the babies were crying. Thinking, wheres my family, where are they? Why am i here all alone, im hungry and im cold.
And dont ever think that they're thrown at a secure place, there's this baby, it came out at the newspaper.
The baby was found by a kid if im not mistaken or the pasukan khas pembuangan bayi, they found the baby in a rubbish bin, without the baby's arms. And then they saw a dog carrying it in his mouth. The baby's arms. And i actually felt that pain the baby felt. Yes well maybe as what iman said, "alaa the baby kan slalu tk rasa ape, im sure he didnt feel it". But he's still a human being. He is god's creation. And everyone has feelings. No matter how small or big or young or old they are. We are all humans. We have feelings. We got stimulus for god sake, imagining myself being thrown away and feeling that pain, the pain that the dog actually separated my arms with my body. That's just u know what im gonna say.WHAT DID THEY DO WRONG? THE BABIES DIDNT DO ANYTHING WRONG! and i know u f*ers in this world are trying to hide what you guys did wrong. Have sex la lagy! Go get urself pregnant! And then when u want ur life and ur world to go the way you want it to be, and then u go throwing something u think thats going to ruin ur whole life.
You people never think of the consequences! You make babies because you want a happy life and the relationship u built with the person u love! Which is marriage! Not just hey ur sexy, im hot, want my number? Lets book a motel. PLEASE JUST PLEASE F*CKING THINK!

Please, just have a long thought about whatever you wanna do in life. Because a small matter changes everything, in your life. And have pity to them that's being thrown away eventhough they did nothing wrong. I beg you.