Honest

You treat people like how you want to be treated, no? Even if sometimes you think other people deserve to be treated differently, weirdly, wrongly, bcs of what they did. I get confused, with principle and with traditional rights or wrongs. I don't know who lives by what. Sometimes I wonder if I should treat other people the way that they treated me, just to let them taste their own medicine. But do I have the rights to do that?

Christina Perri

Christina Perri is coming to Malaysia! On the 7th June, Thursday :D Im gonna beg my dad and see if he allows me to go. I sing her songs like 24/7! I really really really really love her, :')

Envy the hair :(

Got all the pictures from http://vanessajackman.blogspot.com

ENVIOUSSSSSSSSS!

Scarves

Hello! So since i've been really bored at home, I was googling and youtubing and finding interesting blogs about clothes, and new styles and all, since i've had too much of food blogs, channels, magazines and books :P

I came across a few pics of people wearing scarves as their headbands and it's just really cute, its like those 80's ppl. But very very nice :)

I might even try it out ! But i dont have a suitable scarf for it :/ So maybe when I get some, i'll try it out :)

Here's 3 videos for tutorials on how to do it;

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(maybe for those with short hair, they can try this out!)

Change of plans, maybe? :P

My mom just told me tht my dad is gonna ask the advisor from help again to see if i cn do a few sems of adp this year and skip the semester during nov till dec, and myb do it next year when im back from US. :D WHICH IS MORE EXCITING. eventho i wont get to hv tht loooong breeeeeaaak ! Oh well :) College life shuld be more interesting, im fine with both, we'll just wait and see if i cn even enroll and skip and etc.

:DD

La Chica

Did i tell you guys tht im gonna be enrolling in college NEXT YEAR? yes, therefore I have the whole year to myself. Its quite shocking, ive never heard of this type of case bfr. I was thinking of enrolling myself in Help to do american degree programme and go to america to earn a degree in math/stats or both. Met with the advisor, she suggested my parents tht I aim for north dakota state uni. Bcs they have quite a good programme of math and there's discount if i transfer from help :) Now this is the case, if i enroll in adp this year, in any intake at all. My exams would end arnd 15 dec. And im going to US in nov something till dec something. To visit my sister and for a holiday! Therefore, I won't be able to sit for the adp exams. And the advisor said tht there's no problem if i enroll late, i'll still be learning the same thing and all. So yesss, im gonna be a college student next year, not this year ! What am i gonna do for 6 months?

My dad is planning to send me to cooking classes, baking classes, and i'll be spending time at the gym too.

Other than that?
I was thinking of taking up spanish and french :D

ESPANOL

FRENCHH!

HAIR

I love her hair. Simple and neat, its a mix of formal and casual. And she's just so pretty :)

I want pajamas :(

Went thru the victoria secret website and i just adore these pajamas! I've alwys wanted cute cute pajamas, :(

Mad

I hate for the fact that I can't go to the gym or do my exercise PEACEFULLY, if there is such thing as exercising peacefully. And i dont mean the environment im in, I meant the condition im in. Went to the hospital a few days ago. Since i've had short breath everytime my gym session ended. I thought it was normal, you know people breathing heavily and feeling rlly tired after exercising. But mine was much serious than that. I'd have difficulty breathing for about an hour even after a warm up. And i'd feel like i have a tight chest and my nose would be blocked. So the doctor said i have exercise induced asthma. He gave me another inhaler and now I have two inhaler. But my dad still wont let me go to the gym! Im just so mad I feel so unhealthy. I feel like crying actually.

Relieved

He now knows how I feel. I feel better after a year? 2 years? lost count. I feel better now that he finally knows it. There's no reason for me to look back anymore. Dissapointed but expected. Feelings can't be forced. It's also involuntary. But im glad we're still friends :)

Happy for you!

It's my best friend's 2nd anniversary with his girlfriend, & I am so happy for him. For all the things that he went through with his girlfriend, Fie. All the tears, all the happiness. All the crying in the middle of the night to me if something goes wrong. Ooops sorry, just had to say tht. It shows that you love her very much eventhough bfr this I felt like killing her for hurting you. I just realised I had no rights to make the decision for you & I realised how happy you are, with her :) HEHE. You're my brothaa from another mothaa and dadaaa. I knew you since we were 14 years old :P The boy I met at a party, the shy boy with his friend, the boy who played cards but got really sleepy so he went home early. Never thought we'd be bestfriends. Never thought we'd last this long. Look at us now, we're 18 :) And im so happy that you're happy.

Remember i alwys tried to make u gay. Bcs I wanted a gay best friend so badly? Haha. Found this clip from best friend's wedding movie. Julia Roberts and her gay bestfriend, who did a lot for her. Who was there for her all the time. Who supported her. U WILL ALWYS BE LIKE HIM TO ME hahahahaha :P

And im sorry I had to say this :P

3:13pm

Eh gtg.

huhu

Nak lunch jap !

okay stop saying huhu u sound gay

alrighty

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My best friend's wedding

I MISS THIS MOVIE!

Whats wrong?

When you can't identify what's wrong with your life but you feel so empty. It's not like you don't have anything to do or to look forward to. Im in the process of planning my future. Step by step. I keep myself occupied. Wake up in the morning and do this and that, and in the evening i alrdy hv my rest and stuff. By night, now that's the problem. Other than watching tv or surfing the net, i have nothing else to do. And I don't know how to explain this situation but when the sun is out, it seems like happiness is less dense than sorrowness. But when night time comes, all those depressing thoughts, those empty feelings just float. It's not like I dont have anyone to talk to, I have. They're there for me all the time. Im grateful for that one thing but how can you turn to them and say tht something is wrong when u dont even know what's wrong. Or maybe I do know what's wrong , I just don't know if that's the real source of why Im actually feeling empty and depressed. Bcs I overthink things but sometimes i think tht its important to over think things. I mean if you don't do that, then you might regret making the wrong decision. By that time, what you'll be doing is blaming yourself for not thinking hard enough abt what u decided on. And i guess, by then, it's too late.

I don't know what I should do with my future. At first I was certain about it and then when people start doubting my decisions. I start doubting myself. I mean, is it the right thing to do? Is it rlly what I love? Is it rlly my passion? Will it sustain me in the future? The product of it i mean. Will i be content or satisfied with it? Will I have regrets? I know we will all have our downfalls. I'd accept it if i was actually fighting for something tht I believe in. Bcs I can naturally have that determination to actually bring myself up again.

But what if I don't believe in what I do? What if I could alrdy see myself falling and I don't mind falling just cz I know it was alrdy coming? What am I supposed to do next? Stand up and predict another fall? Listen to people laugh and mock me?

I just wanna be sure of what I do. What I decide on. So that when I fall, or when im on the ground, I don't take that time to think again on why I actually do this, or why I even need to get back up again. But I know there's no guarantee in life. It's just that, I can't live with doubts. I really cant. It's like someone telling you there's going to be a few ninjas attacking you but you just don't know when and where. You have doubts on whether your preparation is ever enough and if you are keeping your guard up at the appropriate time.

So what is really wrong now?