New apron!

NEW APROOON!

Hehe i was so excited when I saw this apron! It's just sooooo me, the colour and the style, and all :)

This makes me wanna cook moooooooooooore. Hehehohohahah!

Quack

Went jogging today, Kak Farah picked me up around 7.30am and there was this terrible traffic jam.

Actually I felt reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaallly lazy today, but im gonna get measured today at my gym. And they're gonna see how much I lose or gain, and im really really scared. Bcause I've been eating big big portions & I always feel guilty afterwards. I love food too much! I just hope I do lose a few pounds or better kgs.

So as usual, I went to klcc with kak farah & malik.

And I felt GREAT this morning. Usually I'll just do like power walk or just normal walk :P But today SINCE I asked Malik to push me harder. I jog a lot & I don't feel that tired anymore after tht.

Eventhough my leg hurtsss but I feel good and healthy after it, coz I sweat a lot.

So it was a productive morning because I got a greaaaaat sweat session! & also a great chat with Malik. Since kak Farah always leaves us behind -.-"

Thruout the jogging session, Malik kept promoting Waterloo transfer programme tht Help U offers & since actuarial science is under my consideration. He thought i'd be great if i joined the same programme as him.

Which I think it is. Im just scared tht I won't be able to cope with it.

Actuarial science is reaalllly reallly hard & I heard tht it's harder than medic but I mean it depends on your passion. And i do love numbers :/ Buut, it's not like im that great at it.

Im just still undecided.

It's either im doing math & stats or actuarial science.

Its either ausmat or adp.

Its either aussie or canada

It's either curtin or waterloo.

AAAAHH TORNN!

P/s: Thanks Malik for pushing me & for making sure that I feel fine (meaning without any pain that i cant handle anywhere arnd my muscles and all).

You're a great coach, ducky :')

Looking forward

I can't wait to see my Marshall, my Ted, my Barney & my Robin <3

She's back :)

My bestfriend is back from Umrah! I miss you, Noor Ashiqin :)

Still do, even when ur back! I've had one lonely week. But thanks to the guy version of Ashiqin, Malik. I feel like im not alone anymore. But he still can't replace you.

You'll always be at the top & you'll always be my marshall!

And no tht's not lesbo stuff. Cz we're gays! YEAH! haha kidding.

Im glad you arrived here safely. Now that you're around, I know that my days will be brighter :)

I hope to make yours too! I miss your lame jokes & your poker faced reactions thru the internet, and your way of always making things positive.

You always know what to say even if it takes time. HAHA.

Tu baru one week, Malik is right, what if bila dh msuk university?

I dint imagine tht yet, and I don't want to.

You're like the yin to my yang & my twin, <3

Love you :)

:D

Havent been blogging for awhile now. Been really busy!

Yesterday I had my ujian undang2 or more known as the computer test, and i got 47/50 :D so i passed! it was a relieve, alhamdulillah! I thought I was going to fail. Thank you to Nabila Bakri & Atasha Liu who helped me get familiar with the questions. Finished those 500 questions at the back of the book and bam! almost everything came out.

I've been going jogging & to the gym lately, and i feel like i get tired too easily. I end up sleeping and skipping my meals. Sometimes i even get a headache. But today was different, I felt so energetic! It was like I culdn't sit still O.O

I had to do something. In the morning around 9.45am, I went to klcc with my cousin kak farah. We love the soft tracks there, its easier to jog! And there's not a lot of people by tht time. We met malik at the track since he wanted to jog with a friend too. So why not. Him and his orange shirt and his orange/yellow shoes. LITERALLY A DUCK. Except tht he was a fast duck. We did 1 round of walking, or more to speed walking. He was still with us tht time, and then when we started jogging, we lost TRACK of him :P or he lost track of us -.-" He was too fast. And apparently, i hads short leg and a short STAMINA. But u cant rlly blame me, he was a runner before. SO HAA, cannot compare. Then we did 2 rounds of jogging, so tht is 3 rounds! After we (kak farah and I) finished our 3rd round. We met malik at the bench, so tht we culd do our stretchings there. Then I just had a short moment of an asthma attack, cz my inhaler was in the car :p HASD;NFKASK. asthma problem! hhahahaha. Had a chat for awhile then head back to ampang. Stopped by at k. farah's house bcause we thought abang faris wnted to follow us visit BUTTONS :D an adorable little princess! i mean cat :P at the vet, cz she was on drips and she had an infection at her wound. So she was admitted for a few weeks. She'll be back in a few days :) AND SHE WAS SOOOO CUTEE AND FLUFFY AND I FEEL LIKE BITING HER.

So nways after we went to the vet, we stopped by to buy nasi kukus and head back home :)

Wanted to go to the gym just now but kak farah's car is used by my aunt. So maybe tmrrw :D

OH YEAH , and ive been helping my parents at the store! Heavy heavy heavy job, thts the most exhausting job i've ever done. So probably when im free, i just help them there. Except for today bcause i thought we were going to the gym. Hihi. BOIII.

Im sorry

Im sorry I told you it wasn't going to work. Im sorry I made you cry. Im sorry you think that im playing with your feelings. Im sorry that I made you think you weren't good enough for me. Im sorry for your broken heart. Im sorry I did not tell you earlier. Im sorry if i made you lose faith. Im sorry I made you think about death. Im sorry I made you feel like theres no point living anymore. Im sorry I couldnt give you a chance. Im sorry I had to say goodbye. Im sorry I tortured you. I am so sorry, it hurts me to hear you cry. But I am not ready for all this love kinda thing. I don't want to be ready for it. We're still young. We're only 18. I think that we should prioritise other things compared to this. Love isn't beneficial if it is not for the sake of Allah.

Im sorry.

Stupid for Love

http://youtu.be/TkKFBWSAKRk

AshAsh

I'll miss you, Ashiqin. Please come back safely. I love you <3

Remember we tried this when I slept over your house? We tried it in your room & I was supposed to be Kate Hudson & ur Ginnifer Goodwin. We were so curious about it after watching the movie. The next day your parents asked why we were so noisy :P Im sooorryy uncle. haha!

Then we sang and played bubbles and cooked.

AAAH i still remember the pasta we made!

u wanted the capsicums to be in bigger pieces and i wanted it in small pieces.

The salt tht i poured into the boiling water shocked you :P

Andd the sauce was too sour-y, so i put more salt. HAHAHAHA. FAIL, then we added sugar :P

You are so marshall. You're my marshall & my phil!

Why I .

Now that you're in the hospital, i become more lonely. Everytime I call you, you're either sleeping or doing yr medical check up. I know I shouldn't blame you for not having time for me but I miss you. I think the reason why I left before was bcause you did not have time for me. You were busy with work and you started doing wht I hated which is u know. By the time you got back home, you were alrdy tired. And when you online just for awhile, you're always so busy with your friends. Till you forgot that you were talking to me. I sound really clingy, don't I? Well that's just me.

Will you?

I want you to start loving yourself. I know sometimes I don't too. But I feel like you're not grateful for each day tht God gives you. You're wasting it by risking your health. You want me to stay & I will stay with you. I'll be by your side thruout everything. I promise you that. But you have to start convincing me that it's a worthy thing to do.

Not bcause I feel like staying with you is a burden but bcause i want you to realize that there's someone who loves you. Someone who cares for you when your world becomes upside down.

Everytime I talk to you on the phone, it feels like you're alwys assuming tht I don't care abt you.

You doubt me all the time. I don't know if its your precautionary step to make sure that im really staying or you just dont trust me. But I want you to know that im here. Everyone thinks what Im doing is a bad idea. They're scared that I might get hurt...again. But life isn't always about being happy and getting the things you want. True? I know that I will get hurt, actually I already am but without any sacrifice, what is really life?