No destination

When i think of new years, i feel like crying. I feel like being alone. I just i dont know... i just dont

Orientation Day for the Form 1

These are the senior and junior prefects :)

Left senior, right junior :P

And im doing yoga! :D (haha iman is on MY right and dian is on MY left)

You guys did a great job with the orientation :D

THIS ONE IS SOOOOO UNEXPECTED :O

A junior prefect took this picture of me strutting, hehe not rlly strutting but i was just wearing my blazer, THEY CHEEKKYY JUNIOR PREFECTS! -.-"

They ended up laughing like hell after tht hah -.-"

So i arrived at school 5 minutes bfr 8am, which was the time tht i was supposed to arrive :P 10 prefects of morning session had to come to help out for the orientation day and 10 prefects from afternoon session also had to help out. I was one of the morning session prefects who volunteered to help :) It was definitely worth it. At first we were supposed to ask them to line up in front of the registration table to know which class they were assigned to. My younger sister, Eimaan Aisya got into 1B. So anyways after they knew what class they were in, they lined up again in the tennis court. And then Deborah asked all of the prefects to choose a class. In one class, theres a morning session prefect and an afternoon session prefect. I head to 1U bcause for 1B Intan alrdy chose it. And most of the people in 1U are friends with my younger sister. So it was fun to bully them :) Haha at first we checked their names and make sure they were there. It was funny, bcause everytime i passed by them, they kept quiet and everytime i was gone, they started talking again and it happened over and over and over again. Haha i think they were scared :P Well they were supposed to keep quiet but then alaa theyre just kids, so i cut them some slack by asking them to keep talking, :P haha but quietly la. They knew i was Eimaan's sister so they laughed aftr i asked them to do tht. And then we, prefects escorted them to their class, since they were not familliar with the place. I just wanna make them feel like home, you know make them feel like form 1 is a good start for new things, a comfortable place for them to study, and with all the facilites, with the unique structure of the school, to make them feel proud of being a cbn-er and actually do great things to make the school proud and not really have that negative bad attitude and ruin the school's reputation by being bad students and have bad track records, and have all those cliques. Since i know that SK cbn 1 and SK cbn 2, kinda don't like each othr, i mean for sekolah rendah, i was like tht also, and when i came into form 1, i was like okayy i dont want any friend s from cbn 2, and all and thought they were rlly bad students and kids. But then theyre actually not bad, not bad at all, im mostly friends with them now than i am with cbn 1 students :) Not saying that cbn 1 is not great, it is but to have some kind of rival thing going on, i dont think it will help them get through the form ones :)

Okay so they arrived at their class and then sat at whichever place they chose. I and the aftrnoon session prefect, just asked them to introduce themselves and talk abt their upsr results. It was a good start and then the class teacher came in and, okay so Teoh and I helped the teacher by giving out some form 1 forms, like the takwim and the biodata pelajar, maklumat murid, koko register forms, and the schedule for it, and etc. Most of them were actually blur, so Teoh and I had to help them by arranging it and checking them every second. So tht they know what the teacher is talking abt. Well I felt relieve because most of them didnt mind asking me questions. I think it was because Teoh was more shy, most of the talking came from me anyways. And I approached them without being called. I dont want them to feel stuck and feel lost and end up asking the teacher when shes explaining and everything will just be so sloowwww and we'll feel like useless people -.-" Haha. Anyways theyre new, so they deserve the help :)

When theyre done with the forms, Teoh and I had to bring them on a tour to the whole school! which was exciting :D Teoh couldnt rlly explain a lot, i dont know why she finds it hard to explain and show them the school so she just sat at the back of the line to make sure that the class lines were straight and in an orderly manner. I was in front of the class line and i felt like a tour guide :D First i showed them the form 1 blocks, where all the form 1's from B to A located at. then i brought them to the science labs one level up, and they were just excited and amazed looking at the science labs, there were about 6 or 7 labs at tht floor and i guess theyre not used to the environment of studying in a lab :) So i brought them down again and showed them the lockers section for the form 1's and then brought them up at Pink Dorm where the form six classes are at. So then brought them down down. haha down down and showed them the form 3 blocks, some of them were like "oooo its haunted, theres ghosts there" and i told them tht there were no ghosts, i mean why shuld i scare them? even if its true :P haha.

And then i showed them the form 2 classes, and showed them my class also :D Showed them the toilet, the frangipani tree. So i brought them to the canteen aftr tht and explained to the whole class about sitting in their own class tables. Thyre supposed to u know sit in their own tables and clean up for their class. The bengkel, the library and the art's room. Everything la :D So then when i was done, i brought them to the class again since it was drizzling and i didnt want them to get sick. All of the parents were looking at me and they even took pictures. Aint tht weird haha, some of them even followed the tour? HAHA.

Okay then when they arrived back at the class, I briefed them a lil bit about the school rules. All the basics la like not bringing any highlighter, liquid paper, marker, handphones, walkman, psp, and all those stuff. But im sure tht theyre very innocent :) So i dont wanna pollute their mind though i did tell them that even if they try to hide their phones and all. The prefects would know where they are because its their routine, u know to check and know where it is. We've gone through a lot of things and we would know. So they were like oooo ahahaha.

Some of them also asked how the prefects are, and i said that the afternoon session prefects are really nice but theyre strict when theyre on duty but theyre always helpful and approachable and i saw them feeling more relieved about being open to us :) they also asked me if they would see me again, and i told them tht i was a morning session prefect, the senior prefect so i wont be meeting them anymore as im only in charge of the morning session which is form 3,4 and 5 :)

Then then then , they were like "alaaaa kenapa kakak tkde dlm afternoon session? Tk best la mcm ni, stayback la skjp jumpa kitaorng" hahaha i just knew them for 2 hours and they alrdy said tht, i was aww-ed and i felt flattered :) I mean i love kids, theyre not actually kids but haha i see them as little kids still :)

After i finished briefing them about the school rules, they started asking abt the school's history and i told them some about it :P hahaha. So then Deborah the head prefect passed by the class and allow me to let them go back. So i did and when i was waiting outside the class, some of the form ones just now came to me and salam and cium my hand and even wnted to hug me while saying thank you for everything :')

AWWWW it was the best part ever, i felt like i really helped them feel comfortable and i heard some of them telling their friends tht it was a fun time :)

They even showed me to their friends saying tht im cool :P haha thank u thank u.

P/S: I ALSO ANNOUNCED TO THEM TO BULLY MY YOUNGER SISTER EIMAAN AISYA FROM 1B, PLEASE AND THANK U HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA,

eimaan hit me when her friends told her abt it -.-" dammnn it.

Iman Nedhiera

It's okay if you have challenges like this, you're a really talented girl and you have potential to be anything that you want to be. People not having faith in you is one of the challenges god sent to you, to see how much you really want it. To see if you really believe in yourself. To see if people can just poke you and you fall, or to see if you're still standing up even if people push you with greater force. Trust me, I don't think you're even close to weak. You have a strong spirit and belief, and i know you'll fight for what you believe in. Which is yourself. The greatest or the most important thing here is yourself. Maybe it's just a test to see if you're really sure about wanting to do something tht you think is enjoyable and passionate for you. And since you got your test now, im sure you are more strong and more believing in wanting it which shows that it's really meant for you. So go on with it and keep believing in yourself because I believe in you and no matter what, im always here supporting you if things go wrong or right :)

Great Impact

Just watched pearl harbor yesterday night with my family, except for my dad. It is such an amazing movie, i just couldn't stand it. It made me cry instantly and I couldn't even hold on to tht crying feeling. Kate Beckinsale is such a beautiful girl and josh hartnett is so good looking, oh yea including ben affleck.

Love is such a great thing, the power is so great. It hurts you in many ways and also accompany you in many ways. Maybe if this situation happens in real life, as in like the situation where evelyn fell in love with danny when rafe was gone. Guys out there would say tht evelyn is a bitch, a heartless person, a two faced girl, a person with no feelings, but i really think that she was amazingly hurt deep inside her heart and a part of her just crashed and died. Just like when she said that when Rafe died, she died too. Although it was kinda dissapointing that evelyn fell in love with Danny but maybe it's the path tht she should choose. God wanted to show her the truth. The supposingly. Sometimes our plan don't go the way we want it to be. It would try to take other routes. It's not just a highway to ur destination, that is definitely not life. There would be challenges. This movie officially showed me how big love is, and it made me more scared to be involved with it. Sometimes people think that perfection is everything in love. They think that love should be predictable, should be based on their rules. Like loyalty, trust, faith, and many more. But things in love can do wrong. And yes you can cry bcause of it but maybe that's what god wants you to learn. God wants you to be stronger. God wants you to understand more. God wants to test you, to test your patience. And i know its never easy to do that, but always remember that, loving yourself and loving god is more important than loving anyone else. You might make mistakes, you might lose your mind or your head for awhile , because of love but don't suffer too long for it, not because it is not worth it but because you know this is just another test that was brought down by god. I know you see life as cruel, unfair and dissapointing but those things are the guides that will bring you to what you are meant for. And patience brings you more closer to it faster.

Edu Fair Maniac!

3 education fairs to go to!

Facon Education Fair 2011

Time: 11am - 6pm

Venue: Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre

Date: Mar 12 & 13 (Sat & Sun)

Star Education Fair 2011

Date: 8th & 9th January 2011 (Saturday & Sunday)
Time: 11.00am - 7.00pm
Venue: Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre

Education & Further Studies Fair 2010

Time: 11am - 6pm

Venue: Midvalley, Hall 1, 2, & Atrium

Date: 18-19 december 2010

DROOLS!

This dress is so sweeett, i wntt :D

Anger

You made me this way

As sweet as honey ;)

Haha i know im so old fashioned, so instead of using more chemicals to heal my blemishes and acnes/pimples, i tried using honey! Pure honeyy, and i know tht its very anti oxidant, so its rlly good for acnes the most. I mean at the same time, it gives you the sweet smell when u apply it to ur face! :)

I know its actually more suitable for people with dry skin oh yeah and did i tell you it cn also treat excema? Though i dont have ecxema and my skin type is more to oily, no actually mine is both dry and oily, so i think mine is more to normal skin type. Honey could also a natural antiseptic! If u have any cuts or wounds, u cn just apply the honey on it, it actually helps you prevent infections. oh yeah and ulcers too! I couldn't find any manuka honey, i just used whatever i had in my kitchen, i mean manuka honey is the best type of honey for a facial pack, especially when it's the most anti oxidant honey. And the manuka honey comes from bushes of new zealand ! Although i would advice those who rlly have oily skin, like really really oily skin, dont use honey on ur face more than 2 times or 3 times a week, just try once or twice, coz its also a combo of moisturizer and healing process of acne. It gives u both effect. hehe i enjoyed honey in both ways today! while putting it as a face pack, i had some as a treat too :P

Now, i rlly gotta do a shopping list bfr going shopping (myb) this sunday or bfr my vacation or bfr my edufair and shopping next week! Gotta check my closet, gotta refill my facials and masks. I can't live without them!

They're my boyfriends :) my precious precious boyfriends.

I think i also gotta put lotion tht contains high lemon concentration and aloe vera gel in my shopping list. Lemon could help me fix my dark-yellowish skin. And aloe vera will heal and soothe and cools my acne scars or mybe if i have sunburns later on :o

Oh yes and i have to buy everything tht i need bfr the points in my watson card expires, -.-" can't believe its gonna expire this 31st december, ngeeehh, well good thing the card never expires, now i gotta browse through the vouchers AGAIN to see if im gonna use it soon. Bye! :D

Moisture

I got myself a watson membership card! haha why should i even brag about that small thing? Well maybe bcause im a pharmacyy freak >:) Everytime i go out, WITHOUT fail, i always go to watson or guardian to browse through new stuffs. Like skin care products, or face masks, or lotions and moisturizers, or even hair products! It's just soooo fun and exciting, i mean watson is so the new kinokuniya :D Okay now i sound so lame and so bimbo ish. But watson is rlly exciting, i mean you can actually just google about the organic stuff or the chemicals, and what it does for your skin, and how it actually operates together to give different effects to it and thinking of how it would suit the skin of different people, its magic on how it could actually reacts and hve a total feedback, though analyzing it to be an effective product is another matter :)

I love watson! and i bought avocado & oatmeal clay mask from freeman! it smells so good and it makes ur skin so soft, :) but its not suitable for oily skin type. But u cn still try it coz oatmeal is still suitable :)

To be honest, i am obsessed with skin products, which i think actually brings my skin to a worst condition, :P i think la hahaha. I keep changing facial wash, eyh no eyh yes, ive changed it for three or four times,clean and clear, himalaya, oxy, and now body shop. Haha i dont think im gonna change body shop, coz tea tree oil for body shop is really good :) But if i dont change my facial wash, i'll just change my skin's moisturizer and my lotion, still cant find the suitable one, im still using the vaseline healthy white lotion, but im thinking of changing it to garnier light lotion. Im kinda tan -.-' and lemon is actually kinda corrosive so it cn actually improve the skin's complexion :D

anyways gonna go now! got things to do :) byee!

I've heard enough bullshits

So you really think im gonna be that brainless to actually believe you ? Haha u know i actually am kinda disgusted with people that's too emo. But i am myself, i just pretend that im not. I disgust myself. I disgust myself everytime i hear every bullshit that comes from your mouth, bcause i am not that easy and i am not tht type of girl where u cn just recycle me. So do yourself a favor, plant a brain in your head and see if it even functions, if you need some directions or a mechanic for that, just call me, im rdy to help.

Rubbish

Sometimes you really do need someone to count on to, no matter how strong and tough you are. But me, believing that i needed you, was the biggest mistake i have made. In my life. It really was.

Truth is

I don't know the truth behind everything, i don't know the exact purpose of doing something, people can have different opinians on what they think about, they can have the confidence to support what they say bcause they believe in it. That is all we have, we have our own support to actually convince ourselves that what we do is for the best. When you don't know a thing about what the best is...

There is no right or wrong, there's just results. To see which opinian states the high ranking results. It's all an experiment, it's either you're committing yourself to involve in it or to just arrange one and find your apparatus and materials. Just know that the results are always different. And it doesn't have to be the same, no one said it has to be the same. No one said we have to agree, but no one also said we have to fight when we disagree. It's stupid how someone can be misunderstood by the tone of the voice but it is also done by so many people. It's something you can't avoid. Our voice is just like our face impression. It's lyrics, descriptions, and our confidence. It shows and let people read what you really think and what you really wanna give out. It's how strong you really mean something.

So, I say, even if you disagree with other people, even if you know what you do is something that's really effective and that you would appreciate it if someone else would rlly consider going your way, don't, don't fight for your ideas. Because in the end, you are the only one who could succeed in making it happen. Although, trying to support others are also recommended. Supporting and believing others are just like you imagining yourself being them and getting the support you need. And trust me, it's the greatest thing you could ever contribute to other people. But don't forget to believe in yourself. Because you are the manager, organizer, contributor, sponsors, army, and the director to your own ideas and inspirations. It is all in you. Yourself.

the way to beat them is to stop fighting them.